I'll forgive when I forget ✔️

Chapter Twenty-One

Alexis POV:

The gym just brought memories back of Ace. The rink kept me unstable. The places I thought could keep the memories away were slowly falling apart. It became to much for me. I was currently hitting a punching bag but everything was coming at me at once. Ace? Gone. Kate? Gone. (Left for Chicago to finish school. She needed a new start since Blake.) Parents? Gone. Blake? Gone. Coach? Gone.

I was all alone now. Isn't that what I wanted? Didn't I want to be alone so I wouldn't ruin anyone. The fights were becoming more hectic. My anger taking complete control. I've almost killed four people. I couldn't help it. I'm blinded by rage. Maybe I need to do what Kate did. Maybe I need a new start. I need to forget.

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That's how I ended up in New York. It was a big change compared to Texas. That's what I needed. A change. I stopped fighting. Turns out I'm better off without it. I attend New York University now. It's been 5 months since Ace left. I thought moving would help forget but I could never forget the guy I fell in love with.

I was currently in a bar having a fun night with my friend Tory. I was a little drunk. I looked down at my phone.

To: Ace
'It's been 5 months and I still miss you.'
{Delete}

To: Ace
'The guy who sits next to me smells like you.'
{Delete}

To: Ace
'It's 4:00 a.m. And this alcohol tastes like you'
{Delete}

To: Ace
'The bad dreams came back'
{Delete}

To:Ace
'I tried to tell myself I was beautiful in the mirror like you use to say... I punched it.'
{Delete}

To: Ace
'I stopped fighting.'
{Delete}

To: Ace
'I left Texas. I was afraid I'd see you again, and you would keep walking.'
{Delete}

You: Ace
'I miss you.'
{Delete}

I let out a sigh. Maybe I should delete his number and I won't ever have to think about this again. So that's what I did. I deleted the last piece of Ace I had. I should move on.

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It's been a year. A whole year since everything happened. I'm better now. So so much better. I have a lot of friends, I dance, and college is an everyday thing. I've come to terms with my life. I've forgiven Blake and all the things he's done. I've moved on because it's better to forgive and forget. I have no one from my past in my life now. I lost Kate when I moved. I left her plenty of money in her bank account. I just wanted to start over. All new and fresh. People use to recognize me as Alex Granger and ask for autographs and pictures. That's all died down lately and I've become just plain old Alex Granger. My friends and I go out to parties every night. I get drunk and forget things. It's better this way. I'm a typical college kid. If you looked at me, you would never notice that I was once broken.

You would just see the girl that loves to dance, eat and have fun partying. I've officially moved on.

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I woke up today with a major headache. My apartment seemed empty by the lack of noise. That's all it ever sounded like. The TV was removed after I saw how successful Ace had become. The CEO for almost every single company you can name. All he does is buy company after company. The number one bachelor. Girls swoon after him and I don't blame them. I no longer watched tv.

I quickly got up and threw on a sports bra and shorts with running shoes. I jogged every morning to keep in shape. Today was Wednesday and I had no classes nor dance practice. Maybe a party was being thrown. I took my usual jog around the park. The fresh morning air calmed my senses and the headache was nearly forgotten. I paused and took a sip from the water fountains and just decided to go watch the birds for a bit so I sat down on the park bench nearest to the trees. I was lost in my own world when I saw it. The body was wearing a hoody covering his face and basketball shorts. It looked like he had been jogging as well but his body stood out to me. I knew that body. Just the way he jogged resembled him. But it couldn't be? He didn't live in New York? I didn't take any chances. I stood up quickly and started walking in the direction of my home, but I wasn't quick enough.

"Alexa!"

His voice boomed through my ears forcing me to turn around. A gasp left my lips and it felt like I was crumbling down again. I worked so hard to be normal again and here he was. Just trying to ruin my life all over again. Sometimes I felt like he wanted to see me broken.

"What are you doing here?" I asked almost a whisper. I looked down at my feet trying to regain my composure but it wasn't working.

"Business." Was his one worded reply. I nodded my head while looking anywhere but him. "I. Uh. Can we- uh talk." He stumbled over his words and I almost laughed at how cute it was. Almost. I nodded quickly and he led me back the the secluded park bench I was at.

I sat on one end while he sat on the other. "You look well." He stated. I nodded. "Yes. I've been doing well."

It was silent for a moment. I looked over at him. He put his hood down and you could see the aging. His face was more mature and muscles more defined. I felt like I was staring in the eyes of a stranger. Because I was. I didn't know this man anymore. He didn't know me anymore. We were strangers. I guess he realized the same thing when he cleared his throat.

"Right. Uh. I have a meeting in an hour. I will see you around Alexa." I smiled slightly. I hadn't been called Alexa since the day he left me. I kind of missed the name but I felt that it was forbidden to use without him. He made me the Alexa I was meant to be, but now I'm letting him leave again. Slipping through my hands like water. I looked to tell him 'no stay' or 'when can we meet again?' But instead I found and empty bench beside me. He had left while I was lost in my thoughts. I couldn't help it. My thoughts were all I had left.

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