Skylar's Crush

Chapter 12

 I was so bored. All of my friends went out of town and I was stuck doing nothing in the house. "Grrr! I'm so bored!" I groaned. "Read a book!" my mom yelled across the house. "I don't want to!" I said. "Then stare at the wall.. what can I tell you?" she said. Then I took out my pen and notebook with letters. This is something you didn't know about me. I had a notebook filled with letters I would have sent to Riley, but was always afraid to. I thought he would find out who it was from. I opened my notebook and wrote on a sticky note attatched to the front of the journal saying:

Dear Riley,

I know that you barely know me, and that it's kinda weird the way I feel about you, but I want you to know that who is writing this.. really has feelings for you.

Love,

Well.. you'll find out one day who this is from. <3

  I had an awesome hiding place to put my notebook.. so my cousins or brothers didn't snoop around and start reading it. That would be very embarassing. I wouldn't know what to do with myself if they found it. They would tell my parents, tell his friends, and.. tell RILEY! It's good that I found a prefect hiding place where they will never find it. The only thing I keep asking myself is.. why do I even try? He'll never like me anyways. I'm just a plane boring girl with flaws and strawberry blond hair. I had some good qualities about myself.. like my voice, sense of style, but no one really cares about my good qualities. Everyone only cares about bad qualities, like watching someone fail, trip, stumble.. because that is what most people find entertaining. If you have nothing to laugh at, or laugh with.. no one will pay attention to you.. well.. that is unless your good at being the center of attention becuase your either rich, pretty, funny, or stupid. I never really cared what people think of me, except for Riley. I was so self concious around him. It was like I was living with two personalities. One was the girl who didn't care about what anyone thought and was laid back, and the other was the girl that put on makeup every single day because of insecurities. In the summer.. I was the self concious girl the whole time.