A man once told me to sit in a black room with nothing but silence, and to be completely honest with you, I thought it would be the most boring thing that I would do, but to my surprise sitting in a room with no sound, no surrounding pear-pressuring me to do something you don't want to do is one of the most soul finding experiences of my life.
Everything you have done, every mistake you have made, every single piece of sorrow u have caused and or felt then you begin to think what you could have done prevent this. You think you know everything well you don't, you think you can take control of everything well wake up that it is everything else that controls you without everything else there would be nothing you are nothing but a small speck of dust latching onto the ground begging not to be taken away.
I used to think that if I died right now would my parents care and the obvious answer is yes of course they would but there is still that little bit in me what ch says "what if they didn't care what if they didn't even show or shed a tear" then came the question how and when will I die and so many different events came to mind such as crossing the road and tripping over my shoe lace when a car is coming yet the car doesn't stop so it crushes every single major bone and organ in my body in which I have to live with or someone coming up to me getting so close that they can stab me or slit my throat penetrating my major artery so I die within seconds with no one there to help me .
