I, Suicidal

Who I Choose

It's so strange the way I feel
I don't know what to do
What to say
What to think
All I'm getting is confusion
And thinking it's an illusion
How do I feel?
So frustrated
Don't know what to believe
Indeed
I'm going crazy
And all I'm getting is confusion
And thinking it's an illusion
Help
Help me
I'm going crazy
I can't think straight
I don't know what to decide
And standing here with no one by my side
To help me with this problem
Because I don't know what to do
What to say
What to think
All I'm getting is confusion
Thinking it's a fucking illusion
Help me god
I can't do this
Feeling this way
Not knowing a thing
And being questioned
I seriously don't know what to do.
What to say..
What to think..
I'm so done with all these things
It's driving me crazy
How can I decide
When all I'm getting is confusion
And thinking it's an illusion
Who do I love?
Who do I hate?
I don't know, is it to late,
To say what I feel
To say what I think
To let go and rid the confusion
And all the illusions...
I think it's too late.
I did this
All of it
And now it's me
Who's giving the confusion
And this whole illusion
of love and hate
Is this my fate?
What is my fate?
I don't know.
You decide
You choose it
Tell me you love me
Sounds insane
If you tell me first
Before anyone else
I'll show you
I'll love you
You were the first
So I'll go with you
Because if you did it first
You meant it
You didn't want to wait
Now,
Did I give you confusion
And an illusion?