Joey's death

Tears

The moment the phone rang i knew something was wrong. It was Kevin...again. Kevin 've called me yesterday asking me if i knew where joey was, but i didn't. Joey had dissapeared like a ghost. i grabbed the phone.

-Kevin?

-The police found Joey-He was crying or at least trying not to-Joey was in the woods...dead

I tried so hard not to cry but i couldn't. Joey was dead was the only thing i could think about.

-How?-I managed to ask through my weak voice

-He was beat...very hard-now i was sure he was crying, i could't blame him. Joey had been his friend since kinder.

i dont know why did i ask, i knew no one could answer this but i had to ask it anyway

-Why?

-i dont know. Joey was the best guy i ever know. He was always kind to everyone, he didn't deserve this.

-Thank you for calling me Kevin

-You are welcome-

Joey was dead. I was alone. the only person i ever loved was dead. When Kevin called me yesterday i knew it was no Joey running away, that something had happend to him. If not he would have called me. I didn't think that because i felt superior to his friends but he called me almost every two days and he used to tell me everything. But that was gone. Forever. Then i started crying. I was not going to try to appear i was strong, because i knew i was not. i didn't care about anything anymore. i didnt give a fuck about university, my last year in high school. Nothing, i didnt care anymore about that shit, i just wanted to see joey smiling, joey laughting, joey being joey. I didnt know how i was going to continue my life after that. After a while mi twin entered my room and i told her everything that had happend. She hugged me, she told that joey was one of the sweetest persons she ever met. i knew she was been honest. everyone love joey, he was so good with everyone that nobody could hate him, but he was dead anyway.

I hate funerals. Everyone crying and with suits and elegant dresses. When the coffin arrived the ground i turn away and started to go to my parents'car.

At joey's house everything was worst, there were lots of pictures of him and i couldn't look at them or i will start crying. Joey's mom sat next to me and grabbed a picture where joey was driving the first time his own car.

-He was so happy that day-She told me. She was right he was so excited when his parents gave him the car's key-he was like when he was five years old, he was so sweet when he was like that- I remembered and started crying again.

- i can't sell his car, it's to paintful for me.He was so in love with this car that if i sell it i feel like i am selling joey-She cleaned the tears in her eyes-I want you to have it. Joey love you so i think he would like you to have it

-I dont know what to say-It was the only thing i mannaged to say through the tears in my face

-Please just keep the car, My Husband and me have our own cars and his little brother is to young to drive. And am not strong enough to wake from the bed all the days and see my son's car park here. I will never be able to forget the emptiness he left with his death. But understand me, i don't want to forget joey, i just dont want to wake all the days and remember my son is gone and i never gonna have it with me again.-She was so sad, so hurt that i hugged her-Thank you dear.

-Do you mind if i go to my house now? This is to painful for me - It was the true i was too much for me and i haven't sleep in days so i need it to rest

-Of course i don't sweetheart-She gave me a kiss and i started walking to the door. And then i saw joey's little brother sat in the stairs and i went to talk to him before living.

-Hey kid, Are you okay?

He thought before answering -No, im not okay-

-Yeah me neither-

-Do you miss him?

-A lot, kid- I started crying for the tenth time in the day

-I miss him so bad and it's no even a week since he died. How i am gonna do the rest of my life?

-You will miss him, All of us will. But you will be stronger than the pain and one day you will have your own family and then you will not feel alone, You will still remembered Joey but with out the pain,you will see the time will cure the pain. Do you understand buddy?-He just nodded

-May i ask you something?-

-Of course kid-

-May i hug you?-i din't answer i just hugged him and i notice he had been trying not to cry but now he was crying.It was the best for him, let everything go. After a few minutes i stand up and said him:

-If you ever feel sad or bored or just need something call me okay? Do you have my number?

-No.- I wrote my number down in a paper and gave it to him

-You promise that if you ever need something you will call me?

-i Promise- I hugged him for the last time and left the house.

I entered joey's car and before turning on the motor i look for a pair of sunglases that joey used to have in the car. I found them. But i found also a picture of both of us in the beach. His smile was so beautiful. We were so happy that day...Tears started to came out of my eyes, i didn't care. I was just me in the car so nobody could see me. Joey's brother was right: How are we supposed to don't miss him the rest of our lifes? i tried to convinced myself that the time would cured our pain but until then i will have to go through a tough time.