baby please stay //fab five etc fanfic//

chapter 1

*lucy's pov *

it was an early spring morning and i was getting ready for school. everything seemed to be going great except for the fact that i had to go to my least favorite place. i was just praying no one tried to talk to me today. spring break was over so i was anticipating everyone being caught up bragging to everyone about what they've done the past week. but from everything else that's happened im not gonna get my hopes up...

i get dropped off and run up to the school,hoping no one will notice me. as im going up the stairs someone trips me and i just manage to stop my face from hitting the concrete. laughter surrounds me and i try as hard as i can to block it out but its still there. i fight back tears as i pick my self up off the hard ground. i rush inside and run to the bathroom, my only safe place here, my hideout. i slowly sit down against the door as my tears start to come pouring out. im shaking and my face is getting redder and redder. horrible thoughts keep coming into my head as i try so hard to push them away.

'you're so fat and ugly why do you even try'

'why don't you just die,no one wants you here anyway'

'just kill yourself, everyone would be better off without you'

i couldn't stop the thoughts. they kept pouring in faster and faster and were becoming too much.

'maybe my thoughts are right, no one wants me here, i mean why would they?? im just fat and ugly and stupid, no one else should have to put up with me.'

i darted out of the bathroom and ran all the way home. it was time to leave this hell.

~at home~
i went into my bathroom and dug through the cabinet until i found my pills. i was saving these just incase i was ever in this situation. i took the pills and went to go sit on my bed. i pulled out my phone and went on twitter. i was just going to tweet a few goodbyes and maybe dm a few youtubers, not that it would change anything but it would at least make me feel better. my first tweet read, "goodbye loves, its been a hell of a time."
the next one read, "hope all you assholes are happy. you're about to get what you want."
then i went to my dms and sent one to anthony-
"hi bby i know you probably won't see this i just wanna let you know that i love you so so much. thank you for everything."
and then i sent one to jack-
"i love you lots jack. thank you for getting me this far, you were always able to make me smile."

my eyes were couldy with tears. i was shaking harder than i ever had before. i finally got the pill bottle opened and poured a few in my hand. i sat there for a minute and just stared at them. my mind was empty, i couldn't think.
my head was pounding and my eyes kept getting blurry.

all of a sudden i heard a loud beep. i winced at the unexpected noise. i picked up my phone and looked at the notification. anthony dmed me?? i dropped the pills on the floor and read it

"stay strong babe. and pleaseeeee don't do anything you'll regret. i love you more than you will ever know."
why would he do that? any why me, what did i do to deserve this? my mood changed, and i actually felt okay, at least for now. i picked up the pills and put them back in the bottle. i went back to the bathroom and sat the bottle down. i put my hands on the sink and stared at my reflection in the mirror and whispered, "well lucy, i guess we survived another day."