Falling Back Into My Puddle

The End of The Beginning

Exams, school, homework and studying are things that are a part of my everyday life. Rylee Jones. This is my life, and I love it. Sure, friends and things like that definitely matter but school is my main priority. Besides, I like being a nerd. It's nice knowing that despite whatever, you're acing your next test. Nerds have it the best and that's how I'd like it to stay. Anyway, I have 2 best friends and a boyfriend. Avery, Kayla, and Derek. I've known both Avery and Kayla for about 10 years, and I've been dating Derek for 2 years and 4 months. I have everything that I could possibly want in my life. Why would I want anything else? Well, I don't.

I walk into my school and see Derek near my locker waiting for me.

"Ry baby" he said as he hugged me. His nicknames for me are the cutest.

"Dery! Why you waitin' at my locker?"

"Well, I wanted to have dinner with your fam tonight. I haven't had dinner with y'all in a long time. I don't want your fam to think I don't care about them anymore," he said looking sincere.

"Aww, Dery. You really care. You can come over tonight. I'll cook fried chicken and fried rice. As well as your favorite. Mashed potatos," I said feeling happy.

"Yes! I'll make mac and cheese and bring some drinks over. It'll be great. I'll see you later shawty."

With that, he kissed me and left to class.

Rylee continued her day at school all the way until she went home. She cooked the fried chicken, the fried rice, and the mashed potatos. Soon after, Derek came with the macaroni and cheese and drinks. The two hung out for a bit before Rylee's parents returned from work, and Rylee's little sister returned from after school.

"Surprise," both Rylee and Derek shouted with excitement.

The two made the house full of aromas of delicious food.

"Wait what? What is this for," Rylee's dad asked.

"Nothing. I just wanted to come by and have dinner with my wonderful second family. Both Ry and I cooked for tonight," Derek said proudly.

"Oh my! Derek, Ry Bear, thank you guys so much! Especially you Derek. Thank you for treating my daughter and this family with so much respect and love," Rylee's mom said cheerfully.

They all ate the delicious food and had wonderful conversations about their days. Rylee and Derek hung out. Then, Derek gave Rylee a note.

"Don't open this note until I leave your house. Promise me that shawty," Derek asked.

"Of course I promise baby. I love you," I said.

"Goodnight Rylee," and Derek left. He never calls me by my actual name and he didn't say I love you back..

That's when I realized Derek left and it was going to be for good.

In the note that Rylee later opened. It said exactly this:

"Dear RyBae, I love you so much ma and it hurts me 100% to do this but I have no choice. I gotta break up with you. I'm not doing this because I don't love you. I'm doing this because I'm being threatened by a hoe named Quanangealisha. A little over a year ago, I got tired of not fucking and went to Quanangealisha's house. We did some things and she got pregnant which is the last thing I expected to happen. Wrapped up ole Johnson and everything. She told me that she wanted me all to herself and if I didn't break up with you, she would charge me with rape and make me pay child support. I ain't got no money to do that Ry. I had no choice but to do this. She has a mic on me at all times and won't let me go. Just know that I love you Ry. You're everything that I ever wanted in a shawty and I just hate to say that this is the end. If I ever talk to you again, Quanangealisha is going to blow up my house and kill my fam. I can't do that to my family, and most definitely not to myself. I hung out with your fam because I really think of them as my second family. I had to see them one last time. You'll find someone better RyBae. I love you more than I love anybody in this world and I hope you live on to accomplish all your goals in life. Sincerely, Dery."

That night, Rylee got seriously depressed and cried for 5 hours straight.

A Week Later

Nobody can possibly feel worse than I feel right now. I feel lie to, used, and just so abandoned. The guy that I loved with every muscle and bone in my body is now gone. I don't even care that he cheated. I just want my Dery back.

I took a long shower, brushed my teeth and put on some dirty sweatpants and a dirty hoodie even though I had to go to school and slipped on my Adida slippers. I attempted at putting on eyeliner and mascara but it just kept rolling down my face with my tears. I haven't stopped crying since last night and I truly don't think I ever will. Do you know how it feels when life just takes what made you happiest the most and expects you to be fine once it's gone? It feels like hell. It feels like a part of my body was ripped off and there's nothing I can do but feel the horrible pain. It feels like my heart has suffered an injury I'm not capable of healing.

I hopped in my car, and drove to school. When I got there, I saw Kayla and Avery waiting for me at my locker. Just like Derrick used to ...

"Can you move," I said with a very monotone voice. I wasn't in the mood to talk or anything. I just wanted to finish this day, and go home and cry.

"Listen, Ry. Ave and I think that  you need to forget about what happened. You have your whole life to live! Don't let this small break up bring you down," said Kayla.

"Exactly! You need to forget about Dery and just live your life and do you," Avery added.

"First things first, don't fucking call him Dery. That was my name for him! It's Derrick to you. Second of all, leave me alone! You guys don't understand what it feels like to go through a break up because no one fucking likes you guys and no one ever will! You guys were always jealous of me having a fucking boy who cared and loved me. So how about you shut the fuck up and let me fucking grieve," I said while pushing they away from my locker.

"Bitch don't get smacked! If I wanna fucking call him Dery, I will. Arguing with you is a waste of time. I'm honestly done with your bullshit. I was trying to make you feel better but all you wanna do is be sad. I understand! You lost an amazing boyfriend. But when your two girls try to help you forget about him and feel better, and you act like a bitch, that's when I stop understanding. So fuck you! Do me a favor and thank Dery for last night. He tastes great," Avery said with a sly grin on her face. With that, she walked off.

"You can leave too you know. I realized all of y'all are insecure little dumb inconsiderate bitches," I said while laughing like a crazy bitch.

"Says the girl who's boyfriend wanted to fuck and couldn't and went to some crazy bitch who's forcing him to stay away from you. Who's the real insecure little dumb bitch," Kayla yelled while walking away towards Avery.

Fuck friends! Ha, I was getting sick of those bitches anyway. Lemme just do me and grind by myself.

AUTHOR'S NOTE (Please read. Very Important)

SO! In case anyone is wondering, I don't like taking a long time to get into what a story is about because then I get bored writing it. That's why I basically brushed through the whole beginning. I wanted to get to the good parts lol. Umm. Another thing, please share my stories with your friends and family! It helps with motivation when I see more and more people reading and it makes me want to write so much more for you guys. Vote and comment what you think because feedback matters so much! I love you guys and yeah! I hope you enjoyed this chapter. And check out my other books! Cover coming soon! I just finished writing this and it's 5 AM lol. it'll take some time.

P.S (Optional)

I've been working on this book for about a year now. I know the whole plot and I love every single part of what I've created. This is definitely going to be one of my first books I complete. And I'm going for more of a short story. Sooner or later, along the road, I'll get to making those books with 100 chapters aha! Probably Lost in The Jungle. Anyway! I love you guys so much and stay active!