paradise | jack gilinsky

four

a few weeks later

lily

jack and i have hung out a lot recently. he's taken me on a few more dates and he watches me surf a lot of the time. he's honestly made me feel the happiest i've been in a while. jack was at my house to pick me up. he was taking me out for a picnic on the beach for dinner. we walked down to the beach. jack held the picnic basket in one hand and held my hand with the other.

once we got on the beach jack set up a blanket for us to sit on and then we ate. he was a simple guy and that's definitely one of the things i adore about him. after we ate were asking each other questions so we could try and get to know each other more.

"so, any previous relationships?" jack asked

luke. i wasn't sure if i was ready to tell jack about him or not. it was a hard topic for me to talk about.

"yes, just o-one actually"

i blinked a few times trying to get the tears out of my eyes. jack realized i was upset and grabbed my hand.

"hey, are you okay?"

"i'm gonna tell you about m-my last b-boyfriend" i stuttered

"if it's gonna make you upset, you don't need to tell me"

"i n-need to get it off my c-chest"

"okay"

i took a deep breath before i started talking.

"my last and only boyfriend luke, h-he was amazing. he always treated me like a princess. he was the love of my life. little did i know behind his beautiful smile he was such a sad person. he was getting cyber bullied and i had no clue. then one day, i went over his house to hang out with him." i took another breath "h-he killed himself a-and i-i found his body. after t-that i became so d-depressed i-i thought i could never be happy again."

once i finished i started sobbing. jack moved over on the blanket and pulled me onto his lap and rocked me in his arms.

"it's okay. shh, i have you."

"h-he was too young" i sobbed

"i know lils. i know."

"if i-i knew i could've helped him. he w-would still be here."

"lily that was not your fault. don't you dare blame yourself for that, you hear me?"

i nodded and buried my head into jack's chest, crying my eyes out into jack's shirt. i felt an anxiety attack coming. the only person who could ever help me with them was matt.

"c-call m-matt" i said grabbing my phone and handing it to him

he called matt and told him to come to the beach and that i needed him, which i really did. within a few minutes matt was on the beach.

"what happened?" matt asked

"she was telling me about luke"

matt grabbed my hands and made me look at him.

"breathe lily. focus on the ocean and take deep breaths for me."

he moved to the side of me still holding one of my hands, using his other hand to rub my back. after a few minutes my breathing went back to normal.

"a little better?" matt asked

i nodded

"i'm proud of you for talking about it"

i hadn't told anyone else about luke, this was the first time i really told someone the story about him.

"she really trusts you" he said to jack

he was right. if i didn't trust jack i wouldn't have told him.

"what?" jack said

"she wouldn't have told you any of this if she didn't trust you."

"thank you for coming matt" i said

"you're welcome. i'll talk to you later, alright?"

i nodded. matt said goodbye to jack and left the beach.

"i really appreciate the fact that you told me this." jack said

"i wanted you to know."

"if you ever feel sad or upset you can tell me. you mean a lot to me and i don't want you to be sad."

"these past few weeks being with you has made me feel the happiest i've been in a while"

"all i want in life is for you to be happy. you deserve to be happy."

we ended up laying on the blanket together. i laid my head on his chest and he had his arm around me. we laid there for a little while just watching the stars.

-

i woke up when i felt my body being carried. i opened my eyes a little to see i was in jack's arms. i closed them again and buried my head into his chest. we got up to my house and he knocked on the door. i could hear the door open.

"hi jack" i heard my mom's voice

"hi mrs. williams, lily fell asleep on the beach and i didn't wanna wake her."

"thank you jack, her room is upstairs the first door on your left."

jack carried me upstairs and put me down in bed. i wouldn't let go of him though. i didn't want him to leave.

"don't go" i whispered

"i need to go. my parents want me home, love."

"thank you for tonight and for everything"

"anytime lil"

he kissed my cheek before walking out of my room and pulling my door shut leaving it open a crack.

i could hear my dad talking to him outside my door.

"you really seem to care about my daughter"

"i do. she makes me really happy" i could practically hear jack smiling "mr. williams if it's okay with you, i'd like to ask lily to be my girlfriend"

oh my god. jack wants me to be his girlfriend. jack wants to date me. oh my god.

"you make my little girl very happy jack. as long as she stays that way, i'm completely fine with you dating lily"

"thank you so much. i promise to keep her happy."

i went to sleep with the biggest smile on my face.

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i'm finally starting to update more since i finished my matt fanfic. this chapter is over 1,000 words and so is the next one. i hope you're enjoying this