Fat.
Lazy.
Liar.
Inconsiderate.
Those are the main words I hear from other people.
Stupid.
Ugly.
Selfish.
Worthless.
Those are the main words I hear from myself.
I was an innocent and naive child once: always smiling and trusting. I used to dance and sing my way to make people feel better and try to make people happy as much as I can. I used to be carefree and warm for others. I used to be friends with all the children that I knew. I used to love myself. I used to be genuinely happy.
I'm not anymore.
Now I have to fake my smile to people. Now I have a hard time to trust anyone. Now I don't want to dance or sing in front of everyone. Now I have to be careful with myself and end up making a cold stone wall around me. Now I don't want to people to be near me half the time. Now I am conflicted with myself. Now: I can't say I am truly happy; I don't think I will ever be.
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