If I Go

Chapter 6

Tylers P.O.V

I woke up this morning with a huge grin on my face, but for no reason in particular. Then it hit me. Troye came out to me last night, and I came out to him. And I thought to myself that I actually have a chance now! Or a bigger chance then I used to have because honestly Troye wouldn't let this relationship to anything bigger than two homosexual friends hanging out together, right?

My head was bombarded with thoughts like this but I new I actually I had to do things this morning. "Only 2 more days" I thought to myself. Only 2 more days until I get to get away from the stressful hell that school is, and enjoy my 2 days of freedom, and party. And I get to see Troye there. I jumped out of bed knowing the sooner I get up the faster I get to see that little twink that has impacted my life so much.

My obsession and interest for him was unhealthy, and it only got worse. And now knowing that I could potentially date him just made it worse. As I ran my fingers through my hair, I got up from the edge of the bed to where I was sitting and dragged my feet over to my bathroom to where I discarded my clothes and stepped into the shower. I let the water get to a warm temperature before I put my whole body underneath the spray. I then lathered soap all along my body, then put some shampoo in my hair then rinsed off.

After wrapping a towel around my hair, then using another one to ruffle through my hair, I opened the drawers to my dresser and got dressed. I wore a simple red t-shirt with some brown jeans and my toms. Sometimes I wish I could pull any outfit off like Troye manages to but then I realize I will never reach that level of perfection. He was like an angel, but a devil at the same time. He completely took over my thoughts in any situation, and he was slowly but surely ruining my life. 

After getting back into the real world and out of my day dream about him, I skipped downstairs and grabbed a piece of toast from the kitchen. I then quickly ate it along with a glass of water and jumped into my car. After a short car ride, I pull up to the school parking lot. I get out of the car and spot a small frame that is standing right in front of the doors to the school that I immediately know is Troye. I speed walk over to the doors to try and catch up with him.

As soon as I see him walk into the doors, I find myself caught up and right by his side.  "Hey" I say

"Oh hey Tyler," He said. He seemed sadder. Like he normally has a sad shy vibe around him but he seemed even more sad. I decided to shrug it off because it wasn't my business but I couldn't help but worry. And the whole day he had the same sad monotone voice.

And after every class Troye wouldn't catch up with me to do my homework in the library, or he wouldn't shoot a smile my direction. All he did was go the other direction of the way I was walking. Did I say something wrong? I tried looking back to something that couldn't have upset him but I couldn't think of anything. So during our last break, I caught up with him.

"Hey Troye, are you okay?"

"Yeah Tyler why do you ask." He said clearly trying to mask the actual hurt in his voice.

"I don't know, you've just been ignoring me all day, and you've just been overall sad all day."

"I guess I'm just overreacting.... Something happened and it just kinda put me in a bad mood and I am taking it our on you and ugh I'm just a horrible friend Tyler I'm so sorry,"

"Hey don't be sorry. And if you ever need to talk about it, I am always here," I added a sincere smile at the end of it. Troye smiled back at me. Not one of those cheesy smiles or sarcastic ones. An actual genuine smile that warmed my heart every time I saw it. After my last class it was time to go home, so I packed up my things and got out of there as soon as possible.