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Chapter 20 hurt inside

Shanna’s pov

My heart was pumping so fast

I don’t know if it was excitement or I am nervous, I really don’t know, but still Im really eager to hear his answer

While waiting for his answer I cant keep myself from looking at his face, his perfect face always wearing perfect smiles, and who would never fall inlove with this handsome man???he has his pointed nose, kissable red lips, an expressive eyes with perfect eyelashes and most of all a smile that always makes me mesmerized, halos wala ka talagang maipupula sa kanya

“si Pat”

At para naman akong natauhan sa narinig ko, yeah natauhan ako at hindi nasurprise, maybe a little bit pero mas lamang ang natauhan ako dahil sa ginagawa kong pagmamasid sa kanya.,

I was hurt to hear that, but I never felt bitterness, yeah I was never surprised, you know why??, cause even these past few days I saw how he treats and how he looks to Pat,  and what I have heard a while was just a confirmation….

A confirmation that my conclusion was true, the conclusion that I keep to myself, yeah, its started  when I saw Crayon was waiting outside our classroom not for me, but for Pat…at kahit na ramdam ko yun never akong nainis kay pat, maybe I envy her, pero not enough para magalit ako or mainis sa kanya, kasi wala namang dahilan para mangyari yun

Kaya lang it hurts kasi I cant help myself from assuming, who wouldn’t diba?? Pero afterall ganun lang talaga, I composed myself and

“Hindi na ako magtataka, cause she deserves na magustuhan talaga” I said faking a smile, pero don’t get me wrong im not being plastic here, and isa pa I treated Pat as my own sister, kaya kahit pa ganito, nothing would change

“lahat nasa kanya na, at habang tumatagal di ko maiwasang mahulog sa kanya ng sobra, at tingin ko, parang mahal ko na siya” ouch ang sakit marinig nun, coz it was the same feeling I have for him, but still ngumiti pa rin ako ng pilit

“kaya lang mukhang wala na akong pag-asa sa kanya” then ewan ko, but he’s smiling but…. Iba yung ipinapakita ng mata niya “ si Daniel ang gusto niya” sabi pa niya

Di naman ako makasagot  kasi lam ko naman yun, pero  kahit nasasaktan ako, I cant help na mashock sa sunod na narinig ko

“Si Daniel gusto rin siya, at mukhang mahal na mahal nila yung isat isa”

Why I am shocked? First, I never thought na even siya mahahalata niya or maiisip niya na theres something between kuya Daniel and Patty coz, akala ko kami lang ni Che ang nakakapansin nun,syempre siguro normal lang naman yung kinikilos nila para sa iba coz they were bestfriends but hearing it from Crayon, now I really realized whats really going on between Kuya and Patty, and for the second thought eventhough I am hurt today, I am happy for Pat…

 Second, it was the first time I saw his sad face, for all the times na nakasama ko siya, ngayon ko pa lang nakita na nalungkot siya, ngayon ko pa lang nakita ang Crayon na hindi nakangiti.

And ganun pala ang pakiramdam pag nakikita mong malungkot ang taong mahal mo, kahit nasasaktan ka pa, nalulungkot ka pa rin para sa kanya….:(

And buti na lang magaling talaga magdala si Crayon, nakuha niyang baguhin ang topic namin at magpatawa….how can I not fall inlove with this man????tell me…

After namen kumain umuwi na kami, hinatid ako ni  Crayon,and I admit, I was hurt and cofused, “life is really Ironic”, nasabi ko na lang sa isip ko….haaay