Broken

Chapter 4: Telling Jason

Chapter 4: Telling Jason

Chloe's POV

After dad left to go get Jace I fell back asleep. I dreamt about a world where the accident never happened. I had already graduated college and was engaged and Alex and Gracey were teenagers that still had a mom. I woke up to somebody shaking me.

"Chloe wake up. Jason's outside the door," I heard my dad say.

"Daddy? Do you think Jace will be mad at me?" I whispered suddenly terrified of

what his reaction was going to be.

"Chloe, you've been awake for a month and you haven't told him. He's going to get angry but if you can explain your reasoning then I'm sure he'll understand." He left the room and I closed my eyes waiting for Jace to enter the room. I heard somebody walking into the room and I knew that it had to be Jace.

"Lobear, I've missed you so much. Please open your eyes." I looked up at him and waited for him to freak out. "You're awake? Why didn't I know you were awake? Did you just wake up? Was I the reason you woke up?"

"Jace calm down, one question at a time please. Yes I'm awake. You didn't know because you weren't told. No I didn't just wake up. No you didn't wake me up."

"For how long have you been awake? Don't lie to me."

"A while," I whispered, not really wanting to tell him the truth.

"Tell me Chloe." Jace never uses my actual name he always uses some random nickname. He is definitely pissed.

"Iwasneveractuallyinacoma." I muttered really fast under my breath.

"English please."

"So ummmm I was maybe not ever actually in a coma maybe. I'm sorry don't hate me."

"What? You were never in a coma? For a month you basically lied to me? You let me believe the lie you told everybody else? I thought we were friends Chloe, best friends. I thought we told each other everything. But I guess not. I can't believe you. I've been in hell this past month. I've never had to function without seeing you and all of a sudden you spring a month of it on me. I've been doing bad in sports, missing school, losing sleep. My grades were going down the drain. I've been angry, I've snapped at everyone, hell I think the Gregory administrators were thinking about discontinuing my education. They told me that if I didn't show 'such great promise' that I would be gone. All I could think about was you, I thought you were going to die Chlo. I could have helped you with whatever you were going through. I just can't believe you would do that."

"How dare you say that you could have helped me! You have no idea what I went through.For the first two days after the accident all I did was scream and cry. The nurses had to knock me out to get me to stop. I didn't even move for a week after that, I didn't talk to my dad for a week and when I did I broke down crying. He forced me to talk to the twins. I didn't talk to anybody else until Ashley literally snuck in to my hospital room yesterday. That was what made me realize that I made a mistake. I never should have kept this from you but I didn't want to any visitors. Do you realize how bad I screwed up? I killed my mom and sister. I literally killed two people. I've ruined the rest of my life. I should have died with them. The doctors told me a few days ago that the chances of me ever dancing again are very low. I haven't told anybody that. If I can't dance anymore that ruins everything. I'll have to change schools, make a new set of friends, and change every single plan I have for the rest of my life. Don't say you could have helped because I know you couldn't have."

"Chloe, I had no idea. You know that you didn't actually kill them. It was a complete accident. There was no way that you could have prevented it. Don't say that you should have died. Think about how much worse it would have been if you died too. Your dad would be completely lost. Your sisters would have grown up with no female figure to look up to. There would be so many more grieving people. People in this world need you. Even if your mom and sister aren't here you need to be. There had to be a reason that they had to leave and you stayed here. I'm still mad at you for not telling me but I do understand. I've known you literally my entire life, we even stayed side by side in the hospital nursery for god's sake. You will dance again, I swear by it. There has never been a day that I have not seen you dance. It's in your blood, that's all you ever allowed your body to know. Dance is you Chloe and I will never allow you to give up a part of you."