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She had never been so calm and sober-minded before. She knows what needs to be done, she even feels satified and honored to do it. But in the middle of it all her thoughts bring darkness and the nightmare of being lost in the infinity in time and space for ever. where will she end up? Her faith in that what comes after will be so beautiful and great that a normal minded human could not possibly rap it's mind around it has always reasured her.

Deeper into her thoughts comes "eternity". What is eternity? Well, it never ends. It can't end. All our lives things end and other things begin that eventually also will end. Have you seen eternity? Well, neither have I. It NEVER ends!!! The mere thought of eternity makes her shiver, wether it's the thought of being alive and breathing in eternity or being a dead soul for ever in eternity. In time enough won't them both seem as if the same thing. Somehow when she got these thoughts before it was so much easier to just think that she would have it all figured out when she was older and wiser, before she dies of old age. That's not going to happen. All that she can think now is that she is so afraid, it's so cold and anytime now eternity will have taken her for ever...

Suddenly arms wrap around her like a soft blanket and at first she is startled but then she just feels safe and secure. All thoughts of eternity and being trapped in it has been lost in thoughts of being safe and well in the arms of the man she loves. The man she would have spent the rest of her life with. He doesn't even say anything but just being there is enough for her and she doesn't need words now. Another pair of arms come to hold her but this time she does not get frightened because nothing could have frightened her now. Now she is not alone. The arms witch embraced her last are very familiar ones, those arms belongs to a women whom she'd not consider less then a mother, she has always been there and she is the one who saved her without her she wouldn't have had this adventures life. Most of all she wouldn't have had the chance to be human, to feel happiness and hurt or love, to even have her own will.

Just as a wakeup call the alarm goes off and as it has before only brought sadness and hopelessness now it will bring an end to all of that now it means peace for the ones she loves and for her but mostly it means that her time has come. As they let go off eachother she sees their faces and looking at them she nows that they are very sad but not to worried couse not only does she believe, but they all do believe that they will meet again sometime in eternity. A life of a human is very short compared to eternity. As she walks away and turns towards them to give them a final look she thinks to herself, that a few moments ago she was so afraid because she didn't have the answer but now she didn't mind knowing what would happen next but knowing that what she is doing now is right for this exact moment and that "the things worth living for is alsoe the ONLY things worth dying for".