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It's like 4 am and i'm awake. Why am I awake so early? I usually am the one who likes to stay in bed for as long as I can, but not tonight. Tonight it just feels like I woke up for a reason, so I went up to drink some water and look around some. Leaving my room I step out into the hallway and when looking down it I see that the kitchen light is on. My first reaction is to go check it out, I'm to curious. Thinking about it for a second or two I remeber that my curiousity was why I most never get to go on missions so I must be careful and take it easy. I hear a sound from the kitchen, a kind of crack of someone stepping on something crunchy. A few seconds ago I just imagined that there might be someone there but now I'm sure there is, I even get a bit scared. Pressed against the wall I start walking sideways towards the kitchen. I'm putting my toes first and as slowly and quiet as possible, trying not to make any sound at all. I'm even afraid to breath but still I can't hold it in. The closer I get to the door the more nervous i get and my heart starts pounding in my chest, It worries me that what ever is in the kitchen can hear it. Now I can feel the doorframe and I grab it knowing I'm going to have to turn around and look behind the corner of the kitchen entrence. Before I find the courage to do it i decide that I should imagine the kitchen in my head, all the nooks and crannies, turns and corners. It's much clearer now but I'm still afraid though. So, I take a deep breath and turn quikly. I look for a very brief moment before I duck down behind the counters next to the stove. Just as I planned. Once again I plan my moves very closely so I can get a better look at what might be there and where it is. Seeing it before it sees me is the most important part. If it sees me first I'm as good as dead already. So I get down on my knees an crawl along the counters futher into the room. Closer and closer to the end, I think through the plan that I've just constructed. I see a shadow on the wall and I grasp to fast I'm choking, I can't breath. All i can think is to not make a sound. I'll just need to hold my breath. I can't breath and my heart is just pumping harder and harder. I almost start wondering if I'll die of holding my breath to long before it even gets the chance to take me itself and then i think that might be better. I'd rather be dead than a thoughtless robot following the societies rules.

When I wake up, the first thing i see must be the best thing i could imagine seeing. I feel warm and safe in his arms, he is looking me right in my eyes and I can't help but thinking about how much I love the eyecolor green. Maybe beacause it's so rare and I've only seen it on a few people before. I smile at him, he looked so worried that I felt that I needed to reasure him that I'm fine. He smiles back and I'm relieved. But as soon as it came it went. He just can't help teasing me and making it into a life lesson now that he knows all is well. "You should try yoga it really helped me with my breathing, but I didn't need to faint first because I'm never in over my head". It always feels like he is trying to protect me more than I need it and teach me things he doesn't need to bother teahing me. He is about exactly how I would imagine my 21 century brother being.

"What time is it? Where are the others? Who was here?" I have too many questions and Beau arches his eyebrows a bit and takes a breath preparing to answer my question. "It has only been a few minutes. And what was here doesn't matter now. Don't worry about it, okay!?". I sit up, but I still look at him. What was here? The way he said it once again upsets me. Beau has never considered the other humans as beings but there just What. To him they are the biggest enemy for us, he hates them for what they do to us, hunt us. He is wrong. I know that it's not their fault and I can't help but feeling sorry for them. I feel sorry for them for not being able to be free in their minds like us, that they don't even have their own will. Unlike me they can't dream. They aren't robots, they were made so and those who made them so are the ones I hate.

Beau stands up and helps me up after him. "Tierd?" he asks me. I don't have to think about it for that long and to my suprise I'm not tired at all."Nope"."Great! Put some warmer clothes on and meet me on the roof".What? I have no idea what he has in mind but I'm curious so I just do what he says."And Gigi!? Keep it down okay!?". That I understood though, I'm clumpsy and it is not a secret. I just made that even more clear with my little midnight adventure. Seriously! I've got to work on that. Now that I know that I don't have to worry about any robots in our house, I walk straight to my room where Katalea is still sleeping. Slowly and carefully I lean in and grab my sweater and jeans laying on the floor near my bed. I jump a little when suddenly Katalea moves. but thank god she just turns over to the wall instead of waking up. Back out in the hall I slip on my pants and sweater as fast as possible, then I walk over to the frontdoor and unlock as smoothly as I can. Right when I'm about to go out the door I see Landon coming out his and Beau's room, he rubs his eyes looking at me. As if he is not sure who is seeing and he needs to clear his eyes. Now he is just squinting at me in silence. This i so awkward."Uhm!?", that was my ice breaker. He breaths in then stops in the middle of the breath like he was about say something but now he is choosing to take another approach." I won't say anything. It's okay. Beau already explaind it to me". At the same time as I'm glad that that is what Landon choose to say I think, Explaind what? But I don't ask, it's best that way. Guess I'll just have to find out when I get to the roof. I kindly smile at Landon while closing the door as a thank you for being so understanding. I'm happy that he turns away before I've closed the door so it wasn't one of those awkward goodbyes just looking at eachother while slowly closing the door.