Letters To You

Letter #35

Dear Matt

I came over to your house to bring you my 4AM letter.
You opened the door and made me come in.
I like your room.
The second you closed the door, you walked over to me and hugged me.
I cannot tell you how much I needed that.
I started crying.
I have never cried in front of someone before.
I feel like I can be myself around you.
I'm not sure if that's a good thing.
You just held me for what felt like hours, whispering 'It's okay' and 'It's going to be alright'.
I know it isn't and it won't be, but I still believed you for just a second.
And then you wiped away my tears and you kissed me.
I've never kissed anyone before.
It felt good.
It did funny things to my stomach, just thinking about it does.
But then you said you shouldn't have done that and got up hastily.
Then I left.
Do you regret it?
I hope you don't, but if you do that's alright.
I never thought anyone would want to kiss me anyway.
Rose