Catch Me When I Fall [BxB]

Still Not okay

TW: This chapter contains mentions of Sexual Assault

"Is that time even going to come, Rass? These are all just hypotheticals, aren't they? And after sixteen years?"

"But why would all this suddenly start happening then, Hazel?"

"Oh, I don't know, Rass, if I had all the answers I'd be trying to tell Khai he was a werewolf already. None of this makes sense and forgive me but I'm even questioning fate at this point."

"No judgement here, Hazel. You know I got your back no matter what. But... care to elaborate?"

"Do you ever wonder if the moon goddess is even real? I know it sounds terrible to say, it's... one of the things werewolves have held true since the beginning of time but Jatix and I broke our fated connection and I'm happier now than I have ever been, aside from stressing about whatever is going on with Khai. I mean, yes, the pain is real when you break a fated bond. Physically and emotionally, it's very hard, but it doesn't haunt you for the rest of your life. Not if you're following what you always wanted instead. I think Jatix is probably still moping about because for him, that thing was me. And I loved him, Rassler, I really did I just... you've always been more special to me. That's just the way it is. I do miss the pack life sometimes and the sense of community, but knowing that Khai is free to be with whoever he wants and not have to worry about being shunned for it... that's enough for me."

Rassler smiles and nods, then gets up off his chair to give me a hug.

"I know what you mean, Hazel. About the moon goddess, too. I just... I've never felt that connection. Of course, I never dared tell anyone. But you've just shared with me and I feel safe enough to do so with you, too. And... I feel like the pairing is just... like, look at Khai for example. He's gay and fated to a girl, how is that supposed to make him happy?"

I nod in agreement.

"Now of course, I still believe in marking, there's no mistaking that has an effect, it connects you in all sorts of different ways. But I think it's completely unrelated to the fate and moon goddess stuff."

"Yeah. I mean, I still feel like whatever is going on with Khai is curse but nevertheless... I feel the same way as you."

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When Khai gets home from school, he's very visibly distressed.

"What's wrong, sweetheart?" I ask, "Did something happen at school? Are you getting picked on again?"

Khai sighs.

"No... I think I messed up, I think I did something wrong or made Tyrone uncomfortable or something."

"What are you talking about?"

"He just told me he can't stay for sleepovers anymore." Khai tells me miserably.

"But he seemed to be having such a great time. I don't think you did anything, Khai."

"I know but he had nightmares last night and a panic attack and now he doesn't want to sleep over... I don't think that's a coincidence."

"Well... maybe he wants to but isn't allowed to. He could have a homophobic parent forbidding him." Rassler points out.

"Maybe... his dad has been around lately so..." Khai seems saddened by this thought, but also a little relieved.

"Tyrone adores you, Khai. What would you have possibly done that you think upset him anyways?" Rassler asks.