Sweet Torture

Ingrid sat on the sofa, cuddled into a soft blanked, nipping on a tea that she just made. She loved the atmosphere when the sweet scent of tea mixed with the smell of burning candles and spread through the whole apartment, while she was reading a very good book. However, today was different.

She could barely concentrate on the story of the book, although it was her favorite one at the moment - a love story based on the background of the British history. Instead, her thoughts drifted incessantly away to Hannah and she couldn't wait to see her again any longer. It had only been a weekend since they had seen each other; nevertheless Ingrid missed Hannah a lot. While Hannah was busy with planning the new movie of the Holy Trinity - with Grace and Mamrie - she stayed at home, pre-filming and editing a few new videos, before Hannah and she would leave for France, their first vacation together.

Both of them really needed a break after all the trouble that had been going on in the last months. First of all, there had been Ingrid's Coming Out video that had over 11 million views meanwhile. With this, a lot of things had started rolling - the response was overwhelming, she had been part of the Sexual Orientation panel on VidCon and her life was upside down in general.

In such exciting and also exhausting times, she loved to get in her car and drive away, without a certain destination, just to clear her mind and to get to know what she actually wanted. Mostly, she ended up on the sea, sitting on the rocks next to it and watching the nature doing its thing. The water and its waves had a calming impact of her since she was a small child.

Besides the Ocean, she had also found another very important part of her life, on which she could hold on to. This part was a special person, it was Hannah.

When Ingrid had declared Hannah as her YouTube crush in an interview a year ago, the relationship of them had changed fundamentally. It was like a strong connection that would bind them together for a long, long time. Their friendship had grown and with this their feelings for each other were growing, too. Both of them had always been aware of these feelings; however neither of them had the courage to do the first step and talk about it openly.

At this point though, the biggest problem was that neither Ingrid herself, nor Hannah did know for sure that Ingrid was gay, too. This fact stood in the way of the happiness of two people for a too long time. After a hard phase of inner troubles, self-consciousness and an immense break-through of Ingrid's true self, Ingrid finally accepted herself for what she really was and that her deepest-inner nature is OK. That being gay is OK.

From then on, Ingrid was not only able to live the life that she always wanted, but she was also able to be with the person that she wanted to be with, regardless of what anyone would say or think, because this was her life and her decision.

Ingrid checked the time on her iPhone for the dozenth time; it was 19:42 and Hannah would arrive in round fifteen minutes. Before then, she still had some time left and so she decided to refresh herself. Looking into her own brown eyes in the mirror, she could recognize the impatience and the desire that she was feeling. Again, her thoughts went to Hannah and she imagined how it felt to kiss her. The touch of their lips would be familiar, usually longing and tender. Warmth would spread through her whole body and she would feel like being home, like being safe, wanted and loved.

Finally, Ingrid heard the expected noise of Hannah's footsteps on the staircase in front of their apartment. With a pounding heart, she went to the entrance door and opened it.

'Babe, you're back', she welcomed her girlfriend happily. Hannah's face lightened when she saw Ingrid and her sweet typical grin broadened over her face.

'O my god, Ingrid, I missed you so much.' Hannah whispered in Ingrid's ear while they were falling into each other's arms. She pressed her arms around her, like she wanted to demonstrate how fortunate she was to feel her nearness again, as she breathed in Ingrid's sweet scent.