It's either him or him

Chapter 3

I got home safely and ran up the stairs before my parents could see my face . I locked my door and fell on my bed . I decided to take a shower so I walked over to the shower and turned it on . Striping my clothes off I jump in and wash my hair and body . As the water hit my wrists it burned like hell . I turned the water off and wrapped a towel around my slim body and my hair . I open the door and notice my best friend Sophia looking at me . She gave me a smile and I tried to smile back but tears started falling . She ran and gave me a hug . I couldn't stop crying . She let me go and grabbed my wrists. "What did you do?!" I started to see tears swell from her eyes . I looked down and cried. "I'm sorry! I had to soph . I hate me , I hate my life. Nothing good ever happens . I'm so sad.! I hate life so fucking much !" She cried even more to what I said . I felt guilty but it's a habit I have . I pulled her closer to me and she whispered to me, "I don't wanna loose you like I lost My sister . She cried even more and so did I. Her sister dj hung herself because she was so depressed. She was family to me . I hugged her even tighter and I pulled her with me to my room. "What're you even doing here Sophia ?" I say trying to change the subject on my cuts . She glances at me then looks down at her shoes. "I heard about him. . " I felt a tear roll down my face and before I know it soph is behind me hugging my waist . I turn around and hug her tightly . " I loved him so god damn much and this is what I get from that ass?!" I I whined while closing my eyes .
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I get under my sheets and look at my phone one more time before falling asleep .
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"F is for friends who do stuff together U is for you and me "
I look at my alarm and I turn it off . I lay back In bed and went back to sleep . I think I'm gonna stay home today . Just today . I tossed and turned until I heard my phone ring . I look at my phone to see who it is . I answered it .

"H-hello "?

"Hey, I hope your okay . Aren't you coming I school ?" Jake asked.

" not in the mood to deal with more bullshit . I'm just tired and my eyes hurt from crying so much . "

"Don't let that ass bother you cj your a tough girl. Can I come over later ?"

I really am not a tough girl. I couldn't even stand up for myself in the bathroom when cit tried to fuck me over .
"Yeah, whatever."

"Alright we'll if you need anything let me know . I love you ."

"Ok love you too bye"

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After 5 hours of more sleep it was already 4 . I heard noises from downstairs so I went to see who it was . It was jake . "What're you doing stupid "? I slightly laughed .
"We'll hi to you too" he pouted. "Hi".
He grabbed my hand and took me outside to feel the fresh air . I looked at him with no expression . I walked back inside and he followed me . " we'll someone's on there period huh " he pouted. I rolled my eyes and say on the sofa. "Shut up . Cause I'm not , I'm just not in the mood and I really don't wanna go to school ever again . I mean Alex played with my heart like it was nothing" I sighed and sulked .
***** a week later
I guess it's time to go back to school .
I mean I kept up with homework at home so I think I'll be fine .

It was 6:00 am and I had to get up .
I took a quit shower and got out . I put a pair of sweats and a long sleeve on . I put my hair up into a messy bun And put a bit of mascara . No one to impress now , so I guess leave at that . I grabbed my black boots and threw them on . I I grabbed my bag and ran downs stairs and fell at the end . I looked up to see my mom ,dad , brother , and my little sister . I far my little sister yalexi a kiss on the forehead and my brother on the cheek. I looked at mom who had worry in her eyes . I looked down and awakes by her and hugged her and my dad then walked out the door and started walking .
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Right when I got to school you could hear everyone s chit chat . But right when I entered the hall the chit chat became whispers. I looked around to find my friends but I didn't see them . I guess they all skipped bc they thought I would come today either ? Well whatever . I walked toy locker to grab my math book .
As I started to walk to my first class , I hit something really hard and it hurt . Everything fell out of my bag . "Stupid me I'm really sor-" I spoke before I stopped. He was the most handsome guy I have ever met . I think I was drooling over him . " no need to drool over me baby girl" he smirked . "U-uh.." I felt my face become hot . " the names jaysen." He said as he stuck his hand out. I took his hand and said "cj." I smiled quickly .
"Well cj , maybe we can hang out later and get to know each other ." He winking at me and I giggled before nodding my head . "See ya cj " he whisper yelled. I've never seen him around but he was drop dead gorgeous .