db Deewanis

4. Mehwish

So now it's time for the hottest, sexiest, most intelligent, coolest, prettiest girl to share her story.
Yessss I'm talking about me, Mehwish @iioyemehwish , a 15 year old girl living in germany who is obsessed with Dhoombros but has only one love, the one and only whatsapp-group db deewanis. (By the way I'm not self-obsessed, oh well...hahaha just kidding I'm not....buuuuut.... I guess you have noticed that I'm weird, and yess I am!!) #INeedToStopBeingStrangeAndShouldGoOn
So here's my part, enjoy :))

'Mehwish, it's 6.30 am, jaldi utho 20 minutes me bus aarehi hai school ke liye' my mom shouted. And then she opened the door to my room and stepped in. Her shocked expressions were really funny.
'Mehwish aaj tak kabhi tum time se nehi uthi school ke liye, or aaj time se pehle hi tayaar ho ke beth geyi ho phone le ke.
Aaj itni jaldi kaise uth geyi?' My mom asked me. My answer 'I don't know, just felt so' and my inner voice said 'there's that girl called stee, I used to talk to her on kik when she told me that she and a few other dhoomies want to create a group, and well yeah I joined it. In a few hours alooooooooot of dhoomies joined our group 'dhoombros family'. At night time my cousin isha suggested to create a group on whatsapp and mostly everyone agreed. That's where our story started. Db deewanis was founded alhamdulillah.
You know I'm that type of person who wakes up 5 minutes before I have to leave the house, but since I joined db deewanis I used to wake up at least an hour before leaving so that I could go through the 2000+ messages over night.
Hayyyy these beghairats, phone ka to sattya naas kar ke rakhdiya.
I got used to 300+ messages per hour and my phones gallery filled with the weirdest pictures ever...but who cares!
(Baat shuru kaha se ki or kaha ponch geyi lol)
So that's why I woke up so early and my mom was shocked.

Just noticed that my story has no structure but WHO CARES HAHAHAHA that's how I am...messy..

Now let's continue... (lmao)
So yeah I was one of the first members to join the group and it was so hard to remember everyone's name, country they are living in and all that random stuff, but once someone is close to your heart it is really easy, I guess cause after I spoke to them and got to know those completely random people I actually wanted to remeber everything about them.

At first we all used to be shy but after we got comfortable with each other we dropped the word 'aap' and used 'tu/tum' instead, though I never said anything else than aap, but if my db deewanis like to be called 'tu' I'll do so :)

*note to myself* mehwish ye kya baqwaas kari jaa rehi hai, no one cares about this random stuff!!
But yaar kya karu, itna kuch likhne ko hai ke pata nehi kya likhu, so bas jo damagh me aaraha hai likhti jaarehi hu, or aap sab bas parrhte jao, or damagh me image banalo ke db deewanis kya masti ka bomb hai.

You know, I never was interested in cricket srsly, but this year everything was different. The game started at 2 or 4 am and I used to be the only one awake, not because I was cricket interested, it was because I just couldn't miss mady's bad-dua- session. It was sooooooooooo much fun during the worldcup, ke maine apni neend qurban kardi.

I guess alot of you people know what shehry meant by saying 'You want that pressure to stay there' and well I fell in love with that word...pressure *-* HAHAHAHAHA... or pyaar bhi itna tha ke db deewanis ke liye to mai pressure queen / pressure buddy / pressure bae ban geyi.
My every second message had the word pressure in it, and mostly it had two meanings *smirks* hahahha #IAm15ButStillPG18 ;)

On my birthday, they made me feel as if I am a celebrety or something like that, I just felt so damn special that time, they all made collages and videos for me and wrote so beautiful messages. It just shows how much they actually care for me.

Yaaaaaaar kaha ki baat kaha tak legi mai, itna kuch likh liya or abhi tak koi kaam ki baat nehi ki, I swear I'm sorry but I'm not gonna change it or prove read it, cause jaisa dil me aya hai bas waisa hi likh diya hai, or ab or time nehi zaya karna maine bas kaam ki baat karungi. Moments or stories nehi share karungi, balke feelings explain karna chahti hoon, though I suck at words...and grammar...and structure... basically I suck at writing

Db deewanis me naye log add hote gaye, or kuch hi minutes me they felt as if they know us all for years. We never made anyone feel like they are new. You get added to the group and everyone who's online welcomes you, gives you their intro and then everything is back to normal and you are offically a part of db deewanis. mostly you get a nickname and all that stuff you are threatened like everyone else too.

Anyways mujhse pehle parts me happy moments share kiye gaye the or mere baad waale parts me bhi share kiye jayenge. And I just want to say, that I can never forget these 'moments', these are memories which I'll cherish all my life.

You know, if I say that I am the type of girl who is really shy and has a really low self esteem all db deewanis will beat me up and sing 'jhoot bole, arre jhoot bole kawwa kaate, kaale kawwe se darryo
Sajan re jhoot mat bolo, khuda ke paas jaana hai, waha na haathi hai na ghora hai, waha paidal hi jaana hai'
Can't remember the third one hahahha *holds ears*
Before I joined db deewanis I was that type of girl, but now that I joined it I changed completely. Db deewanis thaught me to love myself (reason for my selfobs intro). I don't have to change myself for anyone, there will always be people who love me the way I am. Maybe these people don't live in the next city but I can say it with full confidence that those people live in austria, canada, america, pakistan, india and in every corner of this globe. Yess I have sisters everywhere.
I feel like it's raelly easy to simply call someone your sister, everyone can do that, but to actually be one, isn't that hard. Mere hisaab se db deewanis ki harr ek member ke paas apne aap ko meri behen kehne ka fully haq hai, kiunke wo behen lafz pe poori utri hai.
Behen, ek aisi machlook jisse aap dukh dard sab kuch baant sakko. Meri koyi bhi kamyaabi koi bhi khushi wali baat hoti thi, to mai apni saggi family se pehle apni 'sisters from another mister' se share krti thi. Or same yehi haal baaki sab ka tha. Bande ko kissi baat ki khushi ho na ho, ye behne aapke liye itna khush hoti hai ke bande ko rona aahijaata hai, banda jitna marzi parrthar dil ho (me ;))
So, apni khushya ek doosre ke saath baante hai hum, or mere dukh me, mujhse zyaada dukh inhe hota hai, isn't that cute?
Yeh sab likhte hue na, mai apne aap ko bohat filmy mehsoos kar rehi hoon, jaise koi story likh rehi hoon, itna pyaar real life me kaha milta hai?
Bas pata nehi aisi konsi naiki ki jazaa mil rehi hai mujhe.
Hayyy you guys just left me speechless, I don't know how to continue...

I don't need a psychiatric therapist in my hard phases, because I simply have my silly sisters who can light up my mood in seconds. Chaahe wo ab 'pressure' ke lafaz se karre ya SROMANCE ke saath, oh yeah we came up with this word cause hum me romance barra chalta hai ;))) *pressure* #BeingPG18Again #AllahMaafKare #TujhSeMohabbatHogeyiAllahMaafKare #StartsSinging *slaps myself again*

I love chatting with db deewanis cause they make you feel so... special... they made me realise that I am perfect, the way I am and I never had to pretend to be someone else. I feel so save around them. Maybe that's why we can exchange our photos (eventhough most of us are hijabis or even niqabis) we shared secrets, ghar ke masle, family problems and I don't even know what else.
Whenever I was bored, I started singing for them, tho I don't even sing infront of my family so they must be something really special. All this just shows how comfortable we actually feel with each other.
All in all there are to many beautiful things about db deewanis and there is so much in my head that i just want to say today but I don't know how to put it in words.
Guys I just want to thank you for ALWAYS being there for me, even in my hardest times I seriously don't know how to thank you for all the things you guys have done for me. Maybe the only thing I can do for my sisters is being their sister.
You guys are so special to me and I always want you guys to stay like this.
Well yeah my awsome readers, I should let you guys know that I am not a part of db deewanis anymore due to some medical reasons buuuuuut my love and care for these people never faded.
Friendship means
Understanding, not agreement.
It means forgiveness, not forgetting.
It means the memories last, even if contact is lost.
So I am mehwish, and that is the only part I am writing in this whole book. I'm not a member of this group anymore pr dil hi dil me abhi tak apne aap ko db deewani maanti hoon, yehi wajah hai ke ab is time ye part likh rehi hoon.
And I just want to end this looooooong chapter with the words
DB DEEWANIS, I ENJOYED AND LOVED EVERY SINGLE MOMENT WITH YOU GUYS, AND I CAN NEVER EVER SAY ENOUGH ALHAMDULILLAH FOR THAT, AND I WILL LOVE YOU GUYS TILL MY LAST BREATH!
And I don't know ke kiski kitni zindagi hai, par meri Allah se yehi dua hogi ke meri in behno ko lambi sehat waali, khushiyon se bhari zindagi aata ho, ameen, kiunke wo yehi deserve karti hai.
Or Allah se ek dua ye bhi hai ke mujhe meri db deewanis se mila de, jitni zindagi Allah ne likhi hai, usme Allah mujhe apni sab behno ko ek baar galle lagaa kar shukriya adaa karne ka moka zaroor de. Ameen
I pyaar you meri behno ♥