Paper Rings

With All My Love

Hi, mika here. I just want to drop by and write a letter. 

How are you? I hope you're doing well. I hope nasa great shape kayo. If things didn't go as your plan, it's okay. Hindi  naman required to accomplish those plans agad agad, palaging may delay yan. Take it slow and easy. Kung may progress then that's definitely good. If wala pa rin, okay lang. If you're not in the shape of being a stable individual whether its emotionally, physically, or even mentally, it's also okay. You don't have to be okay everyday. The only thing that always matter is you're surviving the entire day by being gentle with yourself. Sobrang cruel na in this world kaya kung hindi man gentle ang mga nakapaligid sayo, please be kind and gentle with yourself.

Nagsulat lang talaga ako letter to check up on you and pa approach na ang anniv ng Paper Rings and my anniversary as an author who keeps on writing despite the mental and writer's block. I  am trying to go back to my hobby kahit pakonti konti. Kahit minsan lang because i still found myself yapping through the stories i write.

And, if you're asking me how's life... well, i'm okay. But, there are times na hindi pero hindi na masyadong mabigat because i have someone who loves me despite my flaws and still loves me in my good or even bad days. The one who makes me feel that i am love in my worst days. And, i also want to say that i failed to secure my Laude. I am fine but i am still healing from that heartbreak. 

I am writing or should i say drafting a stand alone story with my OC  that talks about my life experiences. My experience in college, life, dreams, passion, and love. As i try to share my thoughts with you through that story i hope you'll learn something sa istorya na 'yon like how you learn from my past writings. I think the book na sinusulat ko will definitely ruin me in pieces as i talk about all the hardships, how i kill my own dream, and traumas that lives here in my mind. I am re opening some wounds to write again but at the same it will heal because of the man here. It is solely dedicated to him and to you who keeps on striving and finding what love and dreams you should chase in this world.

I hope you know that i am still haunted by SECTION UNO. I think we are haunted by it because of the comfort it brings during on our own hard times. I still see myself rereading and i just finished rewriting the manuscript of Paper Rings.  May nadagdag, walang nabawas. As i rewrite it memories and feelings came. It was a pure chaos, kilig, inis, tawa, at memorya that each of us savored in those moments. Realizations came kasi i always wonder na BAKIT NIYO PATULOY NA BINABALIKAN ANG KWENTONG 'TO? THERE'S NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT THIS. PURE WORD VOMIT LANG NAMAN. As i analyzed every chapter and sentences, i finally understand.  It gives a kind of hug na sobrang warm and welcoming. And, you found yourself being in their own little adventure sa bawat chapter. It brings peace and that feeling na hindi ka nag iisa. And, i am thankful for all of you kasi you always find your way back to my stories and my beloved Section Uno.

I will end this letter here. I hope you know that you guys are always loved by me. Proud na proud ako sa inyo for surviving half of this year despite the hard times and battles we keep on fighting silently. I hope you know na it's okay to ask for a professional help. I-prioritize niyo ang mental health niyo. It's okay to seek help. It's okay to be weak and be vulnerable. Ang hindi okay ay ang magtiis ka at mag dwell sa mga nangyayari in your life. I miss you guys. 

I'll see you in my next books, in physical and social one.

Mahal na mahal ko kayo with all my heart.

- MIKA