You can't break my heart if it was never yours to break

Hurting

It's been a week since Josh dumped me.
It's now spring break. And I'm in my room writing a song while listening to Taylor swift.
I was in tears and i was hurt. I was broken. I couldn't do anything.
So I couldn't take it anymore. I called Josh.
*ring ring ring*
*ring ring ring*
"Hello?"
I'm tears talking
"Josh since you don't care for me anymore. I'm deciding not to go on with the hurt!!!"
"Alexia no. Listen to me. Don't hurt yourself. I'm sorry!"
"Good bye Josh."
"No ALEXIA. don't do thi------"
I hung up. I sat on my bed with my parents gun cause they have a gun for protection. So I wrote a note and I put it on the pillow. It's says:
Dear anyone who reads this,
I'm done with my life and how it hurts. I'm done with the bullies. I'm done with the horrible off stage drama. But most of all I'm done with the heartbreakers. So I'm leaving. Good bye and I love you Josh.
And as I put the pencil down I put the gun to my head and pulled the trigger and I feel on to my bed as the blood came from head.
Josh threw open the door and yelled
"ALEXIA. ALEXIA!!"
He got to my room and he saw me bleeding out on my bed. Lily came and saw me dead and Josh in tears.
"What did you do Josh?"
She saw the note next to me and she read it.
"She did this because you hurt her. YOU BROKE HER HEART. MY BEST FRIEND IS DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU!!"
He whispers to my lifeless body
"I'm so sorry Alex. I'm so sorry."