Catfish

Do You Really Understand?

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Camila, I think we should talk. - SD

We sure as hell do - WMU

I get that you're mad. - SD

woah, I'm having dèjá vu - WMU

I feel a shitty excuse coming - WMU

Camila... - SD

My shitty excuse radar is going crazy right now - WMU

Can we be civilized about this, please? - SD

DON'T PATRONIZE ME, LAUREN - WMU

YEAH I KNOW YOUR NAME NOW - WMU

I USED TO THINK IT WAS A NICE NAME - WMU

I THOUGHT YOU WERE A NICE PERSON - WMU

NOW I DON't know HWAT TO BELIEVE - WMU

I am a nice person - SD

NICE PEOPLE DON'T LIE - WMU

MUCH LESS ABOUT THEIR LIFE - WMU

AND ABOUT BEING A FAN OF LAUREN JAUREGUI - WMU

I mean REALLY, do you think so highly of yourself that you call yourself a fan? - WMU

So, LAUREN, what's your shitty excuse for lying to me for the past five years? - WMU

Do you really get that I'm mad? - WMU

I honestly have no reason to be mad - WMU

oh wait - WMU

You're not really letting me respond. - SD

Yes I am - WMU

I am fitting a perfectly reasonable slot of time to respond in between me yelling at you - WMU

That 'reasonable slot of time' is like 2 seconds long. - SD

well if I can type fast enough to respond '2 seconds' later, than you should be able to respond - WMU

But you're mad at me. - SD

The only person I'm mad at is myself. - SD

and why is that? - WMU

Because I lied to the only person I really care about. - SD

WHOOP WHOOP WHOOP - WMU

Sorry, that was my shitty excuse radar, it's alerting me about a shitty lie (my radar alerts me of all of the shitty things you do) - WMU

But I do care about you. - SD

You have plenty of people to care about - WMU

Your friends, family, fans. The three f's are worth caring about. Obviously not the girl you've been 'caring' about for 5 years. - WMU

Camila, I do care about you. GOSH, I care about SO so so so so so so so so so so so so sooooo much. - SD

THEN WHY HAVE YOU BEEN LYING TO ME FOR 5 YEARS - WMU

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IN MY POSITION, HUH?! Just imagine it: your career is taking off, people are starting to notice you. Your managers take every opportunity to make you known. Life's good. Then one day you find a blog on Tumblr, you read through a buttload of posts and you somehow start developing feelings for the blogger. The only thought going through your head is "I must know this amazing human being" but your managers' voices are ringing through your train of thoughts, saying "DON'T REVEAL YOURSELF, SHE COULD BE A GOLD DIGGER." - SD

Lauren... - WMU

But your feelings were so strong, and when you start talking to the amazing blogger, your feelings start growing stronger. You're surprised thay you've lasted a year not admitting your feelings. And when you do, it feels so great. And the amazing blogger actually reciprocates the feelings! That's great, too. - SD

Stop, please - WMU

And while your career starts to build, and people start recognizing you in a random ice cream shop, or a record store; you feel like life is great. You have a loyal girlfriend who you assumed didn't mind the boundaries you had silently built, and your career is helping you accomplish your life goals. It seemed that life was perfect. - SD

Stop - WMU

BUT THEN IT WASN'T PERFECT, BECAUSE THE GIRLFRIEND STARTED REALIZING WHAT A BAD PERSON THE FAMOUS SINGER WAS. THE GIRLFRIEND STARTED QUESTIONING THEIR RELATIONSHIP, THUS CREATING A RIFT IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP. - SD

Lauren, you can stop now - WMU

AND THE FAMOUS SINGER STARTED QUESTIONING HER RELATIONSHIP SKILLS. SHE THEN REALIZED THAT IT WAS INDEED HER FAULT THAT THE RIFT IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP WAS HER FAULT. THEN SHE STARTS BEATING HERSELF DOWN. SHE'S LOST THE ENERGY TO PERFORM, SHE MISSES SOME CONCERTS AND SIGNINGS AND INTERVIEWS, JUST BECAUSE SHE WAS THINKING OF A WAY TO WIN THE GIRLFRIEND BACK AND PUT EVERYTHING BACK TO NORMAL, BECAUSE SHE FEELS THAT A WORLD WITHOUT THE GIRLFRIEND IS A WORLD NOT WORTH LIVING IN. - SD

Okay, I think I get it now. - WMU

Do you really? - SD

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On a completely unrelated note, I have a quote from Jaurebellion's a/n on chapter 5 from her book Chances. She said, "like I'm 17 and it's summer break for me and I don't want to spend it stressing over a fanfiction ya feel me lmao"

Keep that in mind when you comment on this chapter

~ InTheseWalls xoxo

P.S.: YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAY THIS IS THE LONGEST TUMBLR CONVO CHAPTER I'VE WRITTEN YAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYA I'M SO HAPPY most of them are like 200+ and this one is 700+