Luke and the other boys came to visit every single day, they brought me food to eat and sat with me for a while to make sure i was doing alright, i honestly appreciate them so much. It had been going on for weeks, i had been sleeping in the uncomfy chair next to my brothers bed for three whole weeks, the only time i allowed myself to leave is to take a quick shower but i always made sure that i came straight back, just incase i missed him waking up. i didn't want him to open his eyes and feel like nobody is there for him, for him to feel alone. They have tried convincing me to go and see my new "home", but nothing is a home without my brother right there with me.
He passed away whilst i was sat with him. I was holding his big soft hand as the heart monitor started making a loud, constant beeping sound. Everything had moved in slow motion from then on and i could hear my heart thumping in my chest. A team of doctors rushed into the room and i got into a battle with the nurses as they forced me out of the door, i couldn't stand to see him suffering alone but i couldn't do anything. I stood and watched the doctors pumping my big brothers chest from the window outside, tears were streaming down my face and my head was pounding. The doctors all crowded around him, doing the best they could to keep him alive. A straight line had appeared on the heart monitor and the zig zags stopped appearing, I was impatiently waiting for a sign of life, but It never happened. "That's it" i read the doctor's lips. The team of doctors put their heads down and the one that was in charge grabbed a blue sheet from the side and pulled it over his body. When they came out of his room a nurse put her hand on my shoulder and told me she was sorry, she told me there was nothing more that they could do for him. I was screaming out for my brother but it was too late. He was gone, my whole world was gone, and he left me behind. The boys came to comfort me later that day, they sat with me for hours just rubbing my back and softly tickling my arm to soothe me, they then carefully slipped into the conversation that my room was ready, i didn't bother to put up a fight, i was too exhausted. I nodded and let them take me outside to their car.
