I known that the nurses probably wouldn't appreciate me being there at the hospital but i still feel guilty for leaving Alex, even if he is.. gone. They take me outside to their car. James got in the back of the shiny black range rover first and Luke motioned his hand for me to go first, he follows me so I end up sat in the middle whilst Beau drives and jai sits in the front, Daniel stayed at home to make sure everything is "perfect". They keep assuring me that everything will be okay and that they will help me grieve for as long as i need, they've been a real big help to me, I could never thank them enough.
The drive consists of me staring out of the window emotionless, Luke sees me drifting in and out of sleepiness, he pushes my head onto his shoulder and I feel my self comfortably falling into a well deserved sleep.