Once | A Phanfic

Chapter Two

I wake up to the loud thud of our front door being closed. An ill Dan wanders in not looking up once. He rests himself against the wall.

I pull myself out of bed to check he's alright. Before this, I check the time on my phone. It's 8:22am. That's extremely late for Dan to come home - the latest he's ever got home was 3am with me. I tiptoe into the hallway where I see him leaning over, as if he's about to vomit. I quickly rush over to him and put my hand on his back.

"Dan, come to the bathroom." I advise him. He puts his weight onto my arm as I guide him there. His head is immediately over the toilet where he begins to be sick. I rush off into the bedroom and return with some pyjama bottoms for him.

He throws his shirt off and changes his trousers. I clean up around his mouth with a wet wipe.

He slowly looks into my eyes before breaking out in a loud sob. I feel him tightly wrap his arms around me, crying into my chest. It's not a casual, drunk cry either. It's the way you'd be upset if a relative had passed away or something, or someone killed a cat.

"Dan..." I whisper, holding him. I kiss his forehead gently, "what's wrong?"

He doesn't respond with anything other than heavier whimpers. He's probably just tired, I mean he's been up all this time - right? Maybe he went back to Anthony's for a bit.

I guide him back into bed. He falls asleep quickly but doesn't let go of my hand. I rub his back trying to ease his tense body.

"I love you." I whisper, gently kissing his cheek before falling asleep again beside him.

I wake to the sound of arguing. I walk out into the hallway to see an extremely upset Dan being yelled at by an angry Louise. They both suddenly stop when they notice I've came out.

"Well, Dan?" She snaps, pushing him towards me.

His eyes are puffy and red. Tears are streaming down his cheeks, dripping to the end of his nose.

"What has happened?" My concerned expression makes Dan feel even more upset.

"I'm so sorry, Phil..." He sobs.

I glance over at Louise, who covers her mouth. A tear trickles down her cheek. I'm so confused - what's happening? What has happened? Has someone died? Is someone ill?

"L-last night, i-i..." Dan stutters, struggling to get his words out.

"Dan slept with someone else, Phil." Louise blurts out.

Dan breaks into another heavy sob, "I was going to fucking tell him!"

For seconds, I'm just standing there. I'm just processing the information. I look down at the ground, not daring to look Dan in the eyes. I'm speechless. I slowly walk back into the bedroom and slam the door closed before the tears start flowing heavily down my cheeks.

Why would he do this to me? We were perfect. He was perfect. I'd never felt so happy in my whole life, and he's gone and ruined it. I hope the guy he slept with was very special.
I'm furious and unbelievably devastated. I don't even want to see him again. He doesn't deserve this. He doesn't deserve me. My love for him had quickly dissolved.

I wipe my eyes and grab the suitcase from beside the wardrobe. I throw all his clothes in and throw the bag out of the door, aiming straight for him.

"Get out." I yell, slamming the bedroom door again.

"Phil, p-please..." He sobs, knocking on the door. "Where d-do I go?"

"You're not staying with me." Louise frowns, coming into the bedroom and shutting the door behind her.

Dan is still out in the hallway as Louise sits beside me on the bed. She gives me a tight, warm hug as I cry into her shoulder.

"Why didn't you stop him?" I cry.

"He wasn't with us, we thought we'd lost him in one of the bars. I'm so sorry Phil. I'm so sorry." She hugs me tighter.

Dan slowly walks into the bedroom.

"Get out." Louise calmly says, glaring at Dan.

"No, this is my fucking flat too." Dan snaps.

I quickly rise to my feet and push Dan into the wall. I hear the impact, knowing it must've hurt him. "Get the fuck out."

I hardly ever swear, but at this point I can't help it. It just feels like I'm making my point.

Dan looks at me, tears filling his eyes. Louise quickly pulls me back and pulls Dan back into the hallway, throwing his stuff out of the door and pulling him out too. Louise goes with Dan so I'm left alone in the apartment.

How could he hurt me? He promised me that we'd be together forever. He promised he would always be there for me, and I would always be there for him. I don't need someone like that in my life.