Little Poems

What Do You Want

How come whenever you want me to do something
You then ask for something else
You're never happy when I do
You just ask for more
Give me a sign
Tell me what you want
I want to do something right
But it's hard to do when you don't even know what you want
I ask and you say no
You ask and I must say yes
If I don't I'm punished
If you don't nothing
You don't give clear guidelines
I'm trying my best
My best isn't good enough
You ask for me to make plans
Then yell for being on electronics
I say I'm doing it
You say I'm contradicting
myself
I'm fucking trying so don't tell me I'm not
You want me to be social
But I want to not
It's not that I'm loosing connections
I don't make good ones in the first place
They're falling apart from the beginning
So don't tell me to not let them end
I became friends with someone who is not good for me
Yet you don't know
You want me to hang out with him
You won't take a no
So please just ask for something
And don't ask for something else
I don't have that capability
For even doing it for myself