Little Dead Children

Sleepless Night

here i am again writing in this journal... i have to stay quiet though... everyone of my sis friends are piled on each other on my mini sofa asleep. im thirsty.. ok so i went and got a water bottle... no onr woke up thank god but i fucking cursed my door the fuck out. so imagine this. you are half the fuck asleep and you get yourself water right so you make your way to your room forgetting you shut the door and ram face first into it. yeah smart i know... dont judge me its 00:23 anywhore, im listening to my favorite song and trying to not sing along its break up with him by old dominion... and my otther song.. it goes like this " baby we were with born with fire and gold in our eyesssss." shit i hope no one heard that i have a tenancy to sing random lyrics so if you see them ill quote the song and singer. anyway...i feel like im being watched.... i look around but see nothing but darkness surrounding me. what the hell.... i usually have my lamp on but i cant see it... the darkness feels heavy and i cant breathe.. what is this... so im sitting here hugging my journal choking on this heavy tense air.... im getting kinda sleepy... 

ANONYMOUS: "hello little girl, yes sleep ... sleep .." it spoke but its voice didnt sound.. human... does that even make sense.. it sounds like that demon that hides in the back of your mind or the monstter under your bed that will reach out and grab your foo-

EMILY:" AHHHH HELP STOP DONT TOUCH ME WHO ARE YOU?!?! SOMEONE HELP!!! PLEASE!!" those words.... never leave my mouth ' help me? please?!' what the hell is this... it fucking grabbed my neck and i tried to scream the word please but it was muffled. i closed my eyes for sure it was over for me.. and then..

DUNCAN: "  EMILY!!! start praying! now! hurry!!" he tried to fight through the smoke but couldnt break it. i couldnt breathe but i could damn pray?! i tried to pray every time i said god jesus or hail mary it would tighten its grip. i looked at duncan and his eyes pitch black fighting whatever held me down then Kollin woke up as well because i could hear him cursing the black shadow out kollin is more of a fearless badass friend i have i see him as a brother most of the time.... sometimes i see him as more... but thats stupid of me isnt it...... any way the black shadow left because Raqelle stood up.

RAQELLE: " leave her alone damn it!" and just like that it was gone and i was in Kollins embrace duncan decided to go back to sleep and Kollin and i spoke for a while after Raqelle fell asleep.

K:  " emily you have to be more careful you know cant be up alone passed 12;00..."

E:" i know Kollin im sorry you all looked so peaceful and i couldnt sleep..." i looked at him feeling somewhat upset he just sighed and looked into my eyes.. so i was expecting to be yelled at or something but he picked me up and laid down just like that he laid me down with him in my own bed... to be honest i was about to yell at him. " Kollin G-Get off...." i looked down at his hands which were wrapped around my waist. i couldnt help but to look away and blushed.

K: " oh shut up emily dont act like you dont like it because i know you do." everytime he spoke his lips brushed against my neck and it gave me the chills. i couldnt let him know that i actually started falling for him.. hes a damn fucking ghost for gods sake. ugh whatever i have to sleep now.... hopefully he cant sense that i like him....