L I F E.
The existence of an individual human being.
D E A T H.
The permanent ending of vital processes in a cell or tissue.
To exist is different than to be. I want to exist. I don't want to be another soul. Another mind. Another tissue. Another cell. I don't want to be another deceased body lowered into the dirt ground. I want to be more than life. I want to be more than death.
In 2012, there were 56 million deaths that year. I always ponder on that. Did they want to die? Have they ever wanted to die before? Did they know it was coming? What were their last thoughts? How did it feel? I can't ask a dead person these questions. Well, I could but I wouldn't get an answer. I would probably piss myself and faint if a deceased person talked to me. On the other side, UNICEF estimates that there are an average of 353,000 babies born each day around the world. (That's a lot of unprotected sex. Actually who knows, their condom could of broke. Possibly, protected sex). I always ponder on this as too. I guess you can say I think about life and death a lot, a lot a lot. I know the answer to the same questions. I didn't know know what life was. I didn't know what was coming. I wasn't expecting much obviously. You just kind of arrive without getting an invitation in the mail asking if you even want to be brought on earth. The journey to life wasn't the prettiest ever too. Growing up, my mother would say I came out of her as her princess. I disagreed with her because there was no pumpkin carriage like Cinderella. I came out in a bloody screaming mess that echoed throughout the delivery room. Pretty rude to who ever created humans actually. I wasn't even asked if I wanted to be made or brought to the world. I always hear that you need to remember where you come from. The thing I have trouble facing is, I really don't know where I came from. I really have no clue. There are no answers. Everyone has their own theory of how humans were placed on this earth. I know I came from a stomach of a woman. How did I get there? I guess I was magically strategically placed. I suppose that makes me special. A greater force created me. I am alive.
