Nothin To A Queen *Skate Maloley*

fuck it all

It about a month into the school year. Sammy and the other guys have been trying to make me part of their aocial group and getting on my ads about being distant from everyone. But i honestly could give a fuck. Im going to worry about me and thats it. Everyone else on their own. My dad and i talked a few nights ago hes leaving the base in a week. It took him longer due to something top secret occured so. But he will be here in cali woon. And im happy bout that. I may just move in with him. He is going to retire soon anyway. Something about soending more time with the little booger and well of course me. And i cant wait till that happens. I miss him. Hes all i got in this world.

"Hey dani! Wait up" i turn to see johnson running up to me
"Hey where you been at lately"
"Aeay from you and the rest of the population of this horriblw world"
"Hey i get it your still hurting but come on chill wit us. Get your mind off shit. It will do you good"
"Only thing that 'does me good' is a few grams of weed. Or a few bottles. I dont need no one. No one but my dad. So just fuck off."
People seriously annoy the liveing daylights out of me. Don't people understand that i dont need them to be up my ass every second of the day. Im fine. Ill deal with my shit my own way. I dont need people in my business. Now. Off to phys ed. I need a nap and a blunt asap.

Skate pov
We were all hangin out on the bleachers enjoying the sun. We were talking about new music and somethign about a party.

"Hey guys whats up" johnson says walking up to us We all exchanged our hellos
"So sam i saw dani and asked her to chill but no use shes still rageing"
"Told ya there's no use she wont talk to no one. Shes just in her room all day drinkin smoking sleeping. Idk. I tried but i cant do much more for her. Like why bother"
"Uuuhhh cause shes your sister"
"Step sister. Gilinsky shes my step sister"
"So shes your sister one way or another."
"Ahh i dont know. I rather leave her be."

Dani is nice. But shes a pain in the ass. Luke okay you lost someone doesnt mean your bitch at your own family YOUR OWN MOTHER. I mean i aint no saint. I get pissed easily too with any lil pice of shit. But my mom. Dad. Family. Exceptions for stew cause jeez that kid. But point is shes just being a bitch.
"I think sams right hea tried it all. You all have. But she just wants to be a lil bitch who thinks she can deal wit it all her own. Like leave her be. We cant stop doing our shit cause of her."
"Skate you say that cause you dont even try to talk to her"
"Thats cause i dont need too. And when i do try she just bitches no i rather not"
"Hey isnt this her p.e ckss out here sam" johnson asks
"Yea dont see her tho"
"Is that her up there" we turn to see where gilinsky is pointing to. The top right corner of the bleachers. Only thing is shes sitting on the edge of them. Lookin like shes gonna jump. Dani. I see everyone is just sitting there and i get up and run towards her.
When i start to get closer i hear her. Shes crying. In her left hand shes holding a blunt. This girl really is broken.

"Hey dani" shes turns her head
"What the fuck you want maloley"
"Dam i just wanted to see if you were okay. Dont need to bitch. Okay not the point here. Why you sitting like that. You arbt planing anythi stupid righ"
"Ha you think im trying to kill my self by jumping off. Of course. So a girl cant juat smoke a bit of weed snd sit at the highest point one can and not think they are goung insane enough to kill themselves."
"Ahhhhh"
"You knwo what maloley. Ive lost so much due to military life. Family. Friends. Homes. Memories that only last enough to make me happy for a while. Before my mother found sams dad and got remarried me and jared were put into a military placement for those who either both parents away or with one away and the other unstable to parent. Mylife has been nothing but down hills. And for me to just jump and end it would be abother one. I rather die of over dosing on shit or alcohol poisning. Ateast i could die knowing i was just being me. The one who solves everything with gwtting high and drunk and pushing everything away. So no im not going to jump now you can leave."
"But why do you push things away knowin people are willing to help you out"
"Cause its what i do"
""Well change that"
"You say it as it were an easy thing"
"xause it is just actually try"
"Um done hearing this bull shit im leaving"

She gets up and gets her bag. Shes starts walking only to trip. I grabb her instanrly if i wouldnt have she would have rolled down the bleachers. She was shaking in my arms. Tear were threatnong to spill. Dam this girl really is broken to a point not even her selfish way can put her back together. And i relise i was wrong. She does need help. She neeeds someone to care for her. And im going to be that person no matter how bitchy she is. I bring her closer to me and i sit down she just breaks down crying into my chestm dam. But ill help her get through this. Not matter what.

Dani pov
Why is my life diffucult and horrible why. Why cant i be happy and atleastclose to average. Why is nathan talking to me. Why did he catch me instead of letting me tumble down. Why am i bitchy. And why am i letting him see my breal down. Letting my guard down and showing my weakness. So many questions but no answers to be found. Life for me is too complicated. Fuck it. Fuck it all. Everything anf anything.