A Love Like Ours

No Love Lost

*Tiffany*

I can't believe that all the work I did to make him love me hasn't worked. What hurts even more is that he said he doesn't love me. I gave him all of me I even gave him a piece that he didn't deserve, and at this moment I'm about to give him another piece that he may not want. I'm so confused and hurt, as I ran out the house I took my pregnancy test papers and threw them at him. I was scared to give them to him cause I thought he would be mad. When he said he loved me I felt like I could tell him anything, then he pulled that stupid shit and I just threw them no thought no nothing just threw them, like I was spitting in his fucking face.

I walked into my crib just took a shower, and laid back watching TV. I know what you thinking why you not crying, hell nah I done cried enough ian finna sit and mope over no nigga. I heard a knock at my door and I went to answer it.

"Who is it?" I said.

"GIRL OPEN THIS DAMN DOOR WHO THE HELL ELSE YOU WANT IT TO BE?" I started laughing and opened the door.

"Hey Baby" I said to Kayla.

"Wassup girl...." She stopped talking and looked at me "what's wrong I know that hurt and disgusted look who ass do I have to beat?" I swear this damn girl can read my mind.

"Me and Jaquan got into it and I ended up throwing my damn pregnancy papers at him."

"Oowweee bitch that sound like one of them dramatic love stories, where you get fed up with his shit and end up killing him" I busted out laughing "mannnnn you shoulda told me I would have had front seat, and my popcorn on muthafuckin deck" man I was laughing so hard that I couldn't feel my stomach.

Then I heard another knock on my door, I walked and opened it without asking who it was, when I looked up my laughter stopped and I went into smack a bitch mode.

*Jaquan*

Trey said to go talk to my girl and that's exactly what I went to do. I heard her laugh her cute ass laugh, but her shy laugh is the best man I love this girl. Ian never had this hurt feeling before. So I knocked, she continued to laugh I could tell she was getting closer cause her laugh was too. She opened the door and her laughter stopped.

"What the fuck are you doing here, get the fuck off my door step" she said. Right then I felt that same stabbing feeling in my chest.

"Tif I'm-"

She started laughing "what you sorry?? What you sorry for? Taking my virginity? Making me look dumb? Hurting me? Cutting me deep without a knife? Shit I think knives feel better. So what exactly are you sorry for, getting me pregnant? Fucking with other hoes? What huh?? WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU QUIET IM ASKING YOU A FUCKING QUESTION." she said slapping the shit out of me.

"I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for lying to you, I'm sorry for telling you that I don't love you when I do. I love you but I'm so afraid of being...."

"Of being what hurt like I am now, trying to save yourself from something you and I both know I won't do, I won't hurt you and you fucking know that, I would never even try it, but for the fact you did that shit to me, like I said fuck you and we ain't got shit else to talk about get the fuck away from me. The only time we need to talk is when it's about the baby, if you ain't here about the baby right now then you can leave." She told me and I felt like complete shit I felt like I had hurt her so bad she don't even want me back.

"Oowweee My bitch just snapped gone head" I heard Kayla say supporting her.

"He got me fucked up thinking his dirty dusty dick ass finna come in here and kiss on me and try to dick me down just to leave me hurt again, ian finna forgive his ass right now, and when I do I definitely ain't gone forget this shit" she said.

I deserved this every single bit of it, I think I know exactly how she feels and if it is so then this shit hurts so bad. I don't understand how us males could break a girl down until she feels like nothing and not care. To hear that she just thinks I wanna fuck hurts even worse, I want her and I want her bad. I wanna hear her say she loves me, and I want her to play in my hair, I wanna have those long talks like we always do, just to hear her voice and have her near me 24/7 would be great, but she doesn't want shit to do with me now or maybe ever.

*Tiffany*

"Um hello stop sitting there looking like a lost puppy either yo ass wanna come in and talk about the baby or take yo ass home" I told him I didn't have any remorse or thoughts about his feelings, the way I'm feeling fuck him and his feelings he ain't care about hurting mine.

"Yeah I wanna talk about the baby" I stepped aside and let him in.

"Kayla you can go in the guest room or my room if you want , you know what to do." She walked out and I'm guessing she went to my room.

"Okay talk what you wanna know"

"How many months are you?"

" 2 going on three"

"Why you ain't tell me?"

"I was scared that you would be mad at me and tell me to do something stupid"

" Sooooo... You thought I was going to tell you to abort my baby?"

"Maybe..."

"So you think imma nasty ass nigga like that ma??"

"Quan I don't know what the fuck you are anymore, you disrespected me for the last time tonight"

"I said I'm sorry man but I would never tell you to have a damn abortion, I can man up to my responsibilities and my wrongs, shit Ion need yo ass to be thinking I'm like that."

"Well it seems like it to me, cause yo ass don't know what to say out your mouth" I told him.

"Man Tif I do love you with all my heart" he said "I wanna be with you but I don't want you to have to adjust to my lifestyle, I don't want you to be in harms way at all ma, you have to understand me."

"I understand perfectly my daddy was in the fucking game, I know more about the shit than any other female I know, my daddy died in my fucking arms, he fucking died in my face, so how you gone say I can't adjust to yo lifestyle, what makes the shit worse is you work in the same trap my daddy built, he made that shit a empire his damn self, I can adjust and I'm on my shit who you think pays yo ass, who the hell you think they talking about when they say Queen B's Lil Princess, Me!! My mama is Queen B we are royalty when we run that shit show, as far as I know, you don't know shit and not knowing shit in the game is a bad ass sign the ones that have no knowledge of who they work for can get killed" I said and he looked shocked as fuck.

"So I work for you"

"Yup" I nodded and laughed at his cute ass facial expression.