A Love Like Ours

Forgiveness

We were in the car and it was completely silent, I had so much to say but I wanted him to think first. He looked so hurt and I felt so bad for him, but I didn't want to put pity on him cause he would hate that.
"So you knew?" He asked.
"I knew the story but I had no idea she was talking about you...if I did I would have been told you"
"How did you figure it out when we were in the room?"
"The way she looked at you, her body language, the hurt and regret in her eyes, the oncoming tears she was about to shed before I told you to walk out, those signs told me EVERYTHING I needed to know and more. She loves you...she cares...she wants to be there if you let her be, but she will not push if she feels unwanted so it's up to you."
He said nothing else as we pulled up at my house, and I got out the car, he started to get out but I didn't understand why.
"Ummmm...Jaquan what are you doing?" He still said nothing but approached me looking me dead in the face, he tilted my head up and looked me in the eyes, he then set his lips on mine, so soft, gentle, and leg weakening. The kiss is all I needed to know that he loved me, he departed our lips and at that point I was weak.
"Tiffany Ashanti Jackson, I have loved you for this past year. I loved you at first sight, but I was scared to say anything because of my lifestyle, but since you are basically my boss I might as well let it be known. Although business is not supposed to be mixed with pleasure it would be my pleasure to mix it together and make us one cause I need you." He said never once looking me out of the eye, not once stuttering, so smooth and passionate that you would think a poet wrote it.

*Jaquan*

I decided today to be a man and make it official, I was tired of playing games, tired of feeling empty, tired of playing myself to make myself think that I didn't want her. The truth was I wanted her bad, and I wanted her to be mine forever. I would be completely broken if I didn't have her.
Let me be real with myself Tiffany is the closest thing I can get to classy, she's never in the streets, always doing her work, straight A and B student since who knows when?
She replied to me "Jaquan yes I love you, yes I care, and I am happy that you admitted that. It still doesn't change the fact of what you said and did, and I really do not know if I wanna be with you anymore. Your words cut me deep and your actions cut deeper. Now I'm pregnant and hormonal and you just think I'm going to take you back, that's not it baby sorry." With that she walked away.
I ain't gone lie those words hurt like hell, my heart was so broken. But as much as I hurt her I couldn't and wouldn't blame her. I wish I could take what I did back, but honestly ain't no changing that.

+Later on that day+

*Kayla*
I got a call from Tiff and I was happy cause I wanted to know what went on.

"Hello"
"Hey what's up?"
"The real question is what's up with you?"
"Nothing really"
"So what happened today?
"He met his mom which is my OBGYN, we seen my baby, we had a long talk on the way home, he kissed me and asked me out basically, I declined and walked in the house that about all" she said summing it up.