My thoughts when I thought It was Our Last Moment

I Need Time(Shay's pov)

When I look up at Gabby who's holding my fist that was supposed to hut Casey, I realize what I'm doing. I look down at Casey who's scared and confused by my behavior. 

"I'm sorry, Casey." I say as I slowly get up. 

I reach out my hand to help him up, Casey takes hesitate. I help him up and I see that everyone is staring at us. I pull my hands back from Gabby and Casey, I walk to Boden's office. I knock on his door. 

"Come in." He says. 

I walk in and stay standing up. 

"Sir, I'd like to take some time off. I don't think I can work today." I say. 

"Why is that Shay?" Boden ask.

"Chief I tackled Lt. Casey and I almost punched him till Dawson stepped in." I say.

"I see. You can take as much time as you want, I don't want another accident like this to happen, seeing as he is the Lt. for Truck 81 and I don't see up you running it anytime soon. You have 2 weeks to get this under control." Boden said. 

"Yes, chief." I say before I walking out. 

I collect my things from my locker and I walk out toward my car but I see Gabby leaning on the drivers side waiting for me. 

"Gabby, I can't talk right now." I say. 

"Fine, don't talk, listen. Shay, I miss you and I'm sorry for what I did and how I reacted last night. I love you, Shay. I do. Please tell me were going to be okay. Please." Gabby says. 

"I don't. Gabby, all I need right now is time to myself. We rushed into this, now look at where we're at. I'll call you soon, when I'm ready." I say. 

Gabby nods her head and walks away. I sigh as throw my gym bag in the car and enter the drivers side. I start the car and start going back home.