Things aren't always what they seem

Chapter Three

Phil's POV

I lay in my bed and think for a moment. I cant bully Dan anymore. I think of ideas of what i can do like just talk to him and be kind. That wont work. I had nothing else. Absolutely nothing. Besides changing. My style and everything. I liked him so much that's all i could think off.

I lay in my room, it was dark and cool. I am guessing it was around 24:30 o'clock (12:30am). I thought about him and what to do all day. I couldn't help it. Im even talking about him right now!

The next day at school i actually went to see him. I shamefully bullied him again. "Hey loser!" I say grinning at him. He looks at me and then down again. He wasn't wearing his flower crown today. I think me saying what i did yesterday hurt him so he didn't wear the flower crown today.

i frown and said nothing for a bit. "I see your not wearing your flower crown, trying to hide your homosexuality?" I say and grin again. More like im hiding my homosexuality. He blushes and says nothing still. "still quiet? Say something!" I say to him.

I didn't notice a crowd start to form again chanting him to say something. I look around, i didn't want them to be there. I looked back at him and noticed he was looking at me. He looked like he was about to cry. "stop...just stop..." He says, his voice sounded weak and croaked. I could tell there was anger and sadness in his eyes.

I felt so guilty my heart hurt. I just covered the guilt with a grin. "you know im not gonna stop now?" I say even though i really did want to stop. I see tears start so slowly make their way down his face. "I said stop!" He shouts and shoves me back a bit. I look at him shocked and i said nothing. Everything was shockingly quiet. They bell rang and he ran away from me crying. I stood there and everyone swarmed away.

Im sorry.

He is never going to forgive you.

i know...

I had another battle in my head again. I shake my head to get back into the sad reality. I make my way into the boys bathroom. I stood on the air vent and opened the window. I went out through the window and climbed onto the dumpster. I quickly got off so it didn't break the top of it. I ran home and secretly went in my house. My mom and dad were at work so i closed the door and went into my room. I couldn't stand to be there any longer.

I stayed on my bed for a little while just thinking to myself. It not like i wanted to have feelings for Dan or for a boy at that! I sighed and got out of bed and walked down the stairs to see my mum home i went over to her and pecked her cheek "hi mum" i went to sit down next to her "hello Phil" she said as she looked at me up and down "why dont you were colorful things anymore" she said waving her hands at my black clothes."beacuase they look good on me" she rolled her eyes and looked back to the TV. I went back to my room and decide to skip dinner and just go to bed. I was just hoping i could fined away to talk to Dan without him freaking out. I laugh a little ya like that will ever happen. I couldnt do anything right.