WARNING WARNING
THIS MAY TRIGGER
Later On That Week
Shawn's Concert two days ago was the best experience ever, even he was quite a bit late because of him and I getting stuck in with each other. He sounded great, the props did the job to top the whole show off and the screen behind was great quality and had the lyrics. I won't soon forget anything that happened that day, before and/or after the show.
Shawn's now moved on to Chicago and I haven't heard anything from him since the meet and greet after his show in Florida. I'm just hoping he's had no signal while on the road or that he's been so busy he hasn't had anytime to charge his phone and its dead. I know he's okay because people are giving reviews of the good shows and if he wasn't okay he wouldn't preform.
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My phone went *ding* and I got excited cause I thought Shawn had finally answered my 42 messages that he had seen but not replied to. I type in my password and saw that it was a tweet, it was by @shawnmendes thanking all his fans for getting his newesme song 'stitches' to number one for the 5th week in a row, and the acoustic version to number 3 within two days. Which told me that he was on his phone or computer and is able to contact me but he wasn't!
Two days later, he still hasn't contacted me in anyway and I started to think he doesn't love me anymore and got me thinking he just used me for pleasure and didn't like me at all, I started to get really upset thinking about this. I hadn't left the house in three days and I wasn't eating as much or as good as usual which made me gain weight then lose it then gain more than I was supposed too because my body wasn't used to eating.
I grew depressed over the next few days and I hadn't eaten since I last left the house yesterday I was starving but I was sick to the stomach thinking I was just used as a sex toy.
I also started thinking he might not even be gay and that he might have a girlfriend and purposely sent that secret snap to me to lure me in.
Three weeks passed and I was eating very little and had burns on my arms and had cuts on top of them, both were caused by me to feel the pain inside and out. Then I got an imessage, it was a picture from Shawn. He sent a picture of himself naked and quickly that message was followed up by him deleting it and saying sorry that was for my new boyfriend not you, he asked for nudes. He followed that by saying I'm sorry this was actually for you, I'm guessing he saw who he was talking to and changed it around.
I screamed and ran down to the kitchen grabbed the biggest bread knife we have and stuck it in my neck, I was hurting for quite a while but then everything just stopped, my life, misery and agony was over.
END NOTE
SUICIDE IS NOT THE WAY TO GET OUT OF A MESSY RELATIONSHIP OR DEPRESSION! I JUST ENDED IT LIKE THIS BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO KEEP THIS FIC GOING TOO LONG, AND I'LL BE WRITING MORE VERY SOON :)
