Doktor.
Since I was in kindergarten, I have been asked about what I want to be and most of the time I admit it, I seriously don't know what I want to be. I was just six years old at that time and how can adults expect me to answer a big question like that? I mean, they literally asked me what would I do when I'm old enough in order to buy my own house and pay for my Anya Hindmarch bag on my own? That is crazy. How can I decide that when I only learn to write ' I love to eat apple everyday' in my rusty covered notebook.
Senyum. Ya, aku hanya mampu senyum bila teringat kembali kenangan di tadika dahulu. Alhamdulillah, aku berjaya menempatkan diri di kalangan pelajar perubatan walaupun hanya di kolej swasta, but I did work my ass off hanya untuk mencapai angan-angan kecil aku.
" Fara, why'd you want to be a doctor?" Aku bertanya dgn muka mencebik. " Well, tipu la kalau aku cakap aku nak jadi Doktor ni bukan sebab duit. Yes, at first sebab duit dan glamor bidang ni," rungkai Farah. Pertanyaan aku dijawab selamba disulami senyuman manisnya.
'Manusia, kalau tak kejar duit memang tak sah, ' gumam hatiku.
Aku? Kenapa Doktor? Belajar pun lama tempohnya, susah tu memang tak dapat dinafikan lagi. Ramai yang cakap, jadi Doktor ni lambat smpai jodohnya tambahan pula dengan desakan waktu kerja yang tidak menentu, memang menyukarkan peluang untuk bersosial. Entah, maybe how doctors work in a fast pace and motion really grabbed my attention during my first visit to a hospital. How they walked and discussed while still able to attend patients that came with serious injury memang membuatkan aku teruja. I really want to become someone like them. So majestic and brilliant looking yet so hardworking.
SPM aku hanyalah sederhana pencapaiannya. There was one time that I really want to give up and just be what I suppose to be, maybe cikgu or maybe business woman yang berjaya. Funny how Allah plan things. There is an Arab proverb that goes, 'Man jadda wa jada, man zara'a hasada' which means siapa yang berusaha pasti berjaya dan mendapat hasil. It really did potray my life in matriculation in 2012 where I still remember that I only slept for 2 hours studying and revising. I need to be a doctor walau apa yang terjadi because I believe Allah did give me one more chance by putting me in matriculation.
Kita berbeda pada rupa,
Kita berbeda pada warna,
Namun kita kejar hanya harta,
Lupa diri pada pencipta,
Yang dikejar makin menjauh,
Hati pula makin lusuh,
Benar ini apa yang kita impi?
Mampukah ia menampung diri?
Berpaksilah pada yang nyata,
Tepuklah dada tanya asal cita,
Jangan biar nafsu memandu nyawa,
Barulah niat jadi yang utama.
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Stethoscope
AdventureA diary of a doctor to be. Perjalanan hidup of an unattractive female teenager struggling with her studies and life while still hoping to be able to make her parents happy. Mustahil? We'll see..
