A Knight To Remember

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

I woke in the darkness, his arms tightly wrapped around me and my breasts pressed into his chest.

“Shh Blossom, I have you.  You are safe.  I have you.” He whispered to me through my tears and he kissed me gently to ease my nightmares. 

Half asleep I turned in his arms and wrapped myself around him returning his kisses and before he could react I ground my hips into his.  He groaned deeply and I pushed him back against the bed and straddled him.  His hands came up in an attempt to stop me but I redirected them to take my breasts as I found my rhythm.  I groaned a name as I fell to his chest and I caught my breath. 

He didn’t move.   The man under me stayed still in the darkness. My hands came up to his face in the darkness and I felt the wet tears on his cheeks.

It was then I realised where I was and with whom I was with.

“Thomas?  What...? Ohh, I am sorry Thomas, I shouldn’t have...” I pulled away from him and curled up in a ball and sobbed softly.

His arms found me and he kissed my shoulders as I cried.

“I want you so much Blossom.  I want to make love to you all night.  But I love you Blossom.  I love you with all my heart and I don’t want to be just your lover.  I want to be more than that.  I want to be your everything.  I love you Blossom and I want you with every fibre of me.  But I can’t make love to you yet.  Please understand.”

“I’m sorry...” I sobbed as my body shielded away from him

He eased me back to his chest so our chest were tight together and our skin was wrapped together. “Don’t be sorry. Hold me Blossom, hold me and know that I love you and that I will wait for you.  Please wait for me.  Please don’t turn from me because I am stubborn in my love.  Be patient with me.”  I could hear his tears as his shoulders shook.  I kissed him up his neck and across his face.  His lips found me and we kissed so hungry for each other. 

He groaned and rolled his hips away from mine.

“My flesh is weak.  I am in rebellion with myself.  I know what is the right path Blossom, but I want you.  Having you do that was the most enjoyable experience I have ever had.”

“Thomas... have you ever been with a woman before?” I suddenly understood.

“No,” he said very quietly with immense embarrassment.

I closed my eyes and felt even more ashamed for my behaviour.  I felt him pulling away from me and he tried to turn from me.

“Thomas, don’t please.  I was a virgin up until three months ago.  I was married for three years and he never touched me.  He found me unattractive.  Then he was there and he wanted me in a way no man has ever before.  I did not give in to his desires easily but he took what my husband did not and he taught me to be a woman.  You need not be embarrassed by your inexperience, I have now known three men, my lover who was insistent with his love, my husband who raped me on the day I fell pregnant, and now you.”

 “I am sorry Blossom, I want for but one woman, the one that I will spend the rest of my life with.  I want that to be you.  It makes me very angry to hear how you have been treated.  But I can only love you and hope that you won’t see me like that.  I hope to look into your eyes and give myself to you with the full knowledge that you love me as completely as I love you.  Please be patient with me.”

I took his face in my hands and kissed him then with my face pressed into his chest, his heart beat lulled me back to sleep.

His kisses woke me.  I looked up as the sunlight filtered through the window.  His eyes watched me with a serious intensity.