Life's Journey {YHIWM a Brallie squeal}

"Make it how I want it, but I can't"

Its been a few weeks since the rape. Callie was slowly becoming her old self again.She has been going to therapy but she still can't go to the house.The kids come over and Michael asks her every time when is she coming home and it breaks her heart

"Hey Callie"Stef hollered to her

"Yes"she answered 

"Brandon is here to take you to therapy "

"Be right down"

"How is she Mom"he asked 

"She is doing good she still has her bad days but I believe we are getting our old Callie back"she smiled

He smiled

"I'm ready"she told him

"There is my girl"

"So you ok with joining me today"

"If its what you want I'll do anything for you"

"This is what I need today so thanks"she smiled

"I'll see you two later I love you both"Stef walked them to the door

Brandon helped Callie to the car it felt right being with her again he missed her so much

"So was wondering maybe after we could go get a bite to eat"

"Maybe""Brandon listen today you might hears something that will make you look at me differently and I just want yo to know I love you"

"I already know that and nothing you do can make me stop loving you"

She looked and him and gave him a small smile

THey walked into the room a middle aged woman  greeted them

"Hello Callie its nice to you see today, you must be Brandon"

"Nice to meet you doctor"

"Please call me Sally"she smiled

He nodded

They sat down Callie and Brandon on the couch not really touching each other,the doctor in the chair across from them

"So today Callie asked for you to join the session today and by you being I'm ass here assuming  you are ok this"

"Yes, I would do anything for Callie to feel safe again"

"Now she told me how you guys met I got to say its some  love story you would only hear in the movies"

He looked over at her and smiled"Ya it is ,they always you marry your best friend I never believed it until Callie came along"

"What do you love about"she asked 

"Everything,she amazing she is beautiful,she cares more about others and how they feel then herself I can't believe some times that God gave me her to love"

Callie looked down

"Callie how do feel what Brandon just said ,I saw you tense up"

"I'm not those things anymore I'm not smart I feel ugly"

"Callie you are those thing don't bring yourself down"

"I can't look at him in the eyes anymore I'm sorry"

"Why is that"Sally asked

"I' afraid he looks at me different that I'm damaged that I um... not the girl he married"

"You still are Baby, if anything I'm not the man you married I should apologize to you"

"What for you didn't do anything wrong"

"I promised I would protect you and I didn't you got hurt and I can't help but think that"

"You think that this your fault"

"I'm sorry"

"B,when this happened you and everyone can't telling me that this was not my fault,and now I want to say it you ,Brandon this is not your fault"

"But I didn't protect you"

"You protect me in some many other way, do you know when he was attacking I just closed my eyes and thought of you and me in each others arm because I feel more safe when I'm with you ,I guess we are down a bumpy road right now"

 "Yes we  are going down a road we thought we would never have to go down but here we and we are going to face together,no more going through this alone just come with me"

"I can't"she started crying

"Why can't you Callie"

"I said before I can't  go home because I didn't want to scare my kids"

"Is there some other reason"Sally asked

"I every time I close my eyes I see Liam attack me in the kitchen and I thought I was getting better but I can never go back there"she turned to Brandon "I'm sorry I know how much we love that house Moms bought it for us Its where we built this of ours"

"Callie"he whispered he grabbed her hand"Its just a house"

"The house isn't really problem,well it is but"

"But what"

"What I'm about to say to you may  make you not want me to come home I will understand"

"Cal, you are scaring me"

"I'm sorry I wish I didn't have to tell you what I'm about to tell you.I know we been trying for another baby and the thought of creating something so beautiful and precious out of our love is something I wanted so badly"

He nodded for her to continue 

"The reason I had you come today was for a safe place to tell you something that will crush you.I wish I could go back and rewrite this chapter in our story and make it how I want it, but I can't"

"Callie, did he do something to make you not able to have kids"

"No much worse,Brandon"she held his hand tight"I'm ..pregnant"she covered her mouth and sobbed

I know this is short and I'm sorry I hope you still like it 

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