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•Lacey•

After my little chat with my parents about uni I stormed up stairs. They didn't have to control my life. I was eighteen.

I crawled out my window and sat on the patio roof. I lit up my cigarette taking a drag. Then Michael calls. "Oh great." I think to my self.
"What the fuck do you want?"
"Find your own ride home."
"How much?"
"Alright. Fifty bucks and I'll come get you."
"Alright bye."

I take one more puff then put the cigarette out. I climb through my window grab the keys to my car because my mums were downstairs and I didn't feel like explaining to them where I was going.

I put my vans on and climb down the roof and into the flower beds. "Shit. Mum's gonna kill me." I said to myself. I just crushed her favorite daisies. Fuck it I had to leave before Michael sobered up. Cause if I got there and he was sober I wouldn't have fifty bucks coming my way.

I hop in my Camry started the car and blared the radio that was playing my Spotify playlists. When I arrived at Tiffany's I just walked right in not even caring who saw me in my booty shorts and tight tee shirt.

"Hhhhhheyyyy baaaaabyyy." Luke slurs from the stair case. "Wasssssup." "Luke where's the boys?" I ask in a warning tone. "I think I'm the kitchennnnnnn. I'm not sureeee." He drags out the 'ure' in sure.

I walk out into the kitchen and spot 2/3. Just need to find Calum.
Oh shit.
"Luke you lost calum?" I question him. He just shrugs and gets another drink. "What are you doing here slutbag?" Says the mocking voice behind me. I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

I turn on my heel and flash Alex Vishio the brightest smile I could. "Well Lex, I came to get my brother. And his disciples. If you don't mind." I turn back around but this time she grabs my hair. "No it's not okay with me freak. Freaks don't go to parties." She mocks flips her long, thick black ponytail in my face. "I don't need your approval to go places. 1) your not my fucking mother. 2) your not my fucking father. Now let go my hair right now before I grab your nappy ass weave and throw it in the woods for the dear to eat." I snap back punching her square in the nose.

I flip my straight blonde hair off my shoulder ignoring the cold stares and walked off into the garage. "Michael lets go." I impatiently say. "Okay let me just pee first." He mumbles but I stop him. "No pee in the woods. Or wait till we get home. I can't be in here any longer." I say. I take a deep breath and try to forget about it. "Come on sis were like a half hour away from home." He whines.

"Make it quick." I say angrily. I spot calum smoking outside the garage door. "Calum lets go. We're going home it's almost four." I exclaim and steal a cigarette. They always seem to calm me down. I blew out the smoke in rings and then caught them.

"Woah how'd you do that!" Calum says his eyes bugging out. "I don't know I just did." I say back sarcastically rolling my eyes focusing on the orange paper covering her filter. He just scoffs and looks at my fore arm. "When did you get that tattoo?" He asks touching the nirvana smiley face with the words 'NIRVANA' neatly inked under it. "Jordan's cousin did it last month." I sigh tracing over the smiley face.

"Why would you get a tattoo?" He questions looking at my face now, playing with the rocks under his feet. "Why are you so full of questions when your drunk?" I groan dropping the cigarette crushing it with my shoe. "Is it true you punched Alex Vishio in the face?" Ashton gasps walking out of the garage door, the other too following behind.

"I'll explain in the car." I say rubbing my tired eyes. "We ready to go?" I ask but shortly remembering my money. "Hey one of yous have to pay me or else you're all walking." "Luke you got any money?" Michael asks patting his pockets. "Yeah. You got change for a hundred?" He slurs pulling a hundred from his back pocket. "No I'll just take the hundred. Twenty five each there's four of you. And twenty five times four is one hundred. Perfect!" I flash them all a smile while they groan in response.

"Okay let's hit it." I say opening the car door. I start up the car and pull out of the drive way. "Hey. Lacey I love you." Luke exclaims putting his hand on my knee.

"Luke fuck off." I say. "And stop flexing your muscles, Luke. You look like an idiot." "Come on baby." He coos and gives me puppy dog eyes. "Can't wait till your sober." I mumble and move his hand off me.

I pull in my drive way and pull them along the side of the house. "Okay listen," I whisper. "We have to sneak through my window cause mum thinks yous are at Ashton's and thinks I'm asleep. So when you get in quietly walk down stairs chug a cold glass of water and go to sleep in Michael's room."

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I thought I was clear enough apparently not. "I don't want water!" Michael pouts crossing his arms across his chest and sulks in his chair. "I want star bucks!" He says his face lightening up. "Would you shut the fuck up!" I whisper-yell. "Mum is sleeping. Your not gonna be drunk anymore if you drink it!"

As those words left my lips my mother screamed down the steps, "Lacey it's a school night. What in the hell are you doing?" "Uh -uh nothing just getting a drink I'm thirsty." I struggle to speak as I put the boys in the coat closet in the corridor beside the kitchen.

"Who were you talking to?" She says putting her hands on her hips. Even though I couldn't see her, I knew she had done it. "Myself?" I respond but more of a question than answer. "I don't were you?" She says sarcastically. "Uh- yeah I was talking to myself." I quickly respond. "Get to bed." She sighs and walks back to her room.

When I know she's back in bed I pull the boys out and give them the coldest water possible. "I defiantly feel awake now." Ashton says loudly but before he could say more I cover his mouth with my hand. "Be quiet!" I whisper- yell again. After they all finish their waters. I walk them back upstairs as quiet as possible.

I put them all to bed. They were still drunk but not as bad. I make them all a bed except for Michael and Luke who slept in Michael's bed. The muke vibe was real.
"Hey Lacey can I have a good night kiss?" Luke mumbles half asleep. I sigh but do so anyway. I kiss his forehead. I guess I have to take up as much nice Luke as I can.

"Wait I want one!" "Me too!" "I exist you know!" The other three exclaim their tired voices struggling to speak. "Ugh fine." I say and walk over to all of them and kiss them each good night. "Good night boys." I say closing the door.
"Good night lace." They all say in response.

I was not excited for the morning to come. It was all gonna be different. It's like a parallel universe when they're drunk. It seems like they're nicer when they're high. The next morning they were gonna be all miserable little hungover shits. And I'll be the one to care for them because no one else will.

And plus I was always the one to get drugged into doing it.

I walked back to my room and closed my door. I didn't feel right. It's a feeling I've never had before.
Withdraw.
I've always cut when I felt like I need to. It's been about reel ever hours since the last time I've cut. It's time. Time to make more cuts.

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a/n

Hey guys! Please don't kill me I'm sorry it's been so long for an update I've been so busy with school and boy drama and other personal problems y'all probably don't even care about.

But how's your life. That good. Glad you're all doing well and your not that mad at me😁

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