cuts ➳ l.h.

t h r e e

It's kind of like getting high. Cutting I mean. It gives you this feeling that takes you away from everything. Away from all the bullying, pain, and drama of life and let's you escape for a few minutes. It's the only thing I have for myself.

I clean up the rest of the blood and put the razor back under the mattress and plop down on my pillow. I think for a minute. 'Lacey what are you doing with your life. You 18 years old and you still cut like a depressed middle school girl. Maybe it's time to stop?'

The last thought was more of a question than a statement. I really did need to stop but I couldn't. The feeling was just too enjoyable. I don't think I'm ready too give it up.

I checked the time. It's was five. I had a free first two periods thank god. Or else I wouldn't be going to school. I close my eyes and start dreaming.

Dreaming of a place where I can be myself with no one around to judge me. Where there's no brothers and their annoying friends. I start to drift away into slumber as all my worries wash away.

Suddenly a loud noise abruptly wakes me up. "What the fuck is that?" I question to myself. I stand up walk to Michaels room and see what is going on. They're all rushing around. "Guessing you missed 1st?" I ask and they all turn their heads to the door way.

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•luke•

"Shut up Lacey, your so annoying!" I scream trying to find my shoes but only picking up Ashton's every time. "Well you bitches can walk," she says back and walks into her room slamming the door.

"Way to go Luke," Ashton starts. "Now we're gonna be even more late!"
"How come none of us have a drivers license?" Michael says with a confused face.
"Because we all failed. Remember you ran over that lady during drivers ed." I sassily reply back.

"It's not my fault she was in my way!" He defensively says. "Wait guys where's calum?" Ashton quizzically questions. We all turn our head to where he was sleeping last night.

"ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME NO ONE WOKE HIM UP!" Michael yells. "YOUR KIDDING RIGHT!" He asks again for reassurance but no one moves.

A very sleepy headed calum sits up and rubs his eyes. "What time is it?" He asks his voice deep and raspy. "Well princess Diana, it's fucking 9:30. Yeah we missed 1st period. Douchedick," I sarcastically say.

"Oh shit!" He spastically mumbles. He springs up and jumps into skinny jeans and a blue Maine t-shirt. "Let's go guys I have Listerine strips in my backpack." Ashton says running down the steps.

We all crawl into the open window in the boys bathroom. If Liz finds out I was this late I'll be dead. Good thing she's in Norway for some cruise... That's why I've been staying at Michaels. Even though I live there half the time but that's just my excuse this month.

Anyway. We walk to our lockers hoping no teachers catch us. I start walking over to the cafeteria when, of all people Mr. Anderson comes creeping up in his grey turtle neck and hunchback. "MR. HEMMINGS!" He yells in my ear.

Well he really didn't yell he just talks like that. He's really really really loud, creepy, and annoying. Someone told me he keeps cameras in the girls locker rooms.

"Yes, Mr. Anderson," I breathe in slightly squeezing my eyes shut as tight as possible. I've just been caught. Yeah obviously but I never get caught! I don't know what to do!

"Do you have an excuse for being late!" He spits at me. I wipe the spot of my face, "say it not spray it bud. And yeah I do I'm just gonna go with the classic, 'I over slept' excuse and let's call it a day okay? okay."

I turn on my heel to walk back into the cafeteria but he grabs the collar of my t-shirt pulling me back to where I was just standing. "Late slip?" He inquires. "Um I-I don't have it?" I say but in more of a question way.

"Then how did you get in?"

"Ms. Mclarkson let me in. Then she left something about her car breaking down. Go ahead call her! She'll tell you the same thing I did!"

"Yes. I will call her right now actually!" He replies back. Now your probably think I'm worried right? Nope. Ms. Mclarkson and I are very very tight.

He pulls out this pager looking thing dials her number gives me a stern look and puts the phone to his ear. There was like 20 minutes left till lunch so this phone call better be quick.

"Yes Ms. Mclarkson it's Mr. Anderson. I caught Mr. Lucas Hemmings sneaking into school late this morning is it true you let him into the building?"

All I hear is mumbling from the other side. Hopefully she's covering for me. He nods his head in approval and gives me a dirty look. I can't help crack up. Come on it's Mr. Anderson how can you not.

"Thank you Ms. Mclarkson. I hope your car gets fixed very soon. Okay. Alright. Good bye."

He ends the call and sticks his pointy finger in my face. "You got lucky this time Mr. Hemmings." I just shot him a smirk and say, "I'm lucky all the time."

He turns around and goes back to his classroom. The bell rings and all the 1st period lunch goers come flooding into the cafeteria.

I met up with the rest of the guys and we sit at our regular lunch table. "Okay would you rather bang Mrs. Biscontio or have a threesome with Patrick Dempsey and Megan fox?" Ashton asks. Honestly it wasn't a had question.

"Dude obviously Mrs. Bis-" I started but then I was stopped. "Guys look at the blonde girl over there. Next to the brunette." I whisper-yell. "Why are we whispering?" Michael asks. "Dude she's a perfect ten." Calum breathes

"Wait a second!" Michael yells, "that's Lacey and Jordan!" "Oh my god!" "Ew!" All three chorus in unison. Me? I just sat there gawking at her. I never realized how pretty she was until now.

"Luke don't you agree." Ashton says cutting straight through my reverie. "What? Oh um yeah. She's so ugly what was I seeing."

Okay I lied I know but I had to keep my friends around. I have to force my self not to like her. Seriously I can't go through that shit again. Even though I was happiest with her I lost respect from everyone.

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A/N

Hey guys. Some switch point of view but I've been working on this chapter for awhile. And I lied about releasing the new book lol. Don't worry it's still coming out I mean I lied about releasing it that day.

Well my crush asked me to this formal thing but ya know life hates me and the god damn thing gets canceled. But we've been talking a lot.

But I'm working on liar and I'm writing a new chapter as you read this. Sorry for the long wait I've just been so so so busy with school, my family, homework, cheerleading, and a bunch of other shit but my New Years resolution is to update more and faster and who knows maybe this book will be finished by next year.

But please keep reading/voting/adding to your library and recommending to friends or creepy uncles but please don't lol just friends.

I love you all some much and happy holidays and happy days. Hop everyone gets laid and drunk

~irelynn✖️