My Life With Depression

What is Depression?

So many people wonder what depression is. Most of them think that it is another deeper form of sadness. Something you can cure just by thinking happy thoughts.

Let me tell you that depression is so much more horrible than just plain sadness.

It's crying yourself to sleep every single night.

It's waking up every morning wondering why you got up.

It's the feeling of not being good enough.

It's the feeling of failure.

It's getting angry at the world and at yourself.

It's pain that makes every breath hurt.

It's the guilt of letting down the ones you love most.

It's wondering if everyone else would be better off without you.

It's  asking yourself what you did to deserve all this pain.

It's lying to everyone around you telling them that you're okay.

Q wishing that everything that didn't kill you, did.

It's loathing yourself.

It's feeling vulnerable and empty.

It's feeling tired even after getting a good  nights sleep.

It's when you don't see the point in doing anything anymore.

It's giving up on yourself.

It's feeling weak , alone, and broken all the fucking time.

It's wearing long sleeves on the hottest of days to hide your scars.

It's screaming when no one can hear you.

It's feeling unloved and uncared for.

It's depression and it's a part of me.

It's a part of some of you too.

It's a fucking part of so many people all over the world.

Many of us feel alone and scared to talk to people.

We feel like no one will understand.

We feel like the world will be a better place if we just killed ourselves.

The thing is, you aren't alone. You have people who care about you. Even though you may not see it, people will miss you if you leave.

There are people out there who are willing to listen to your stories. If you can't think of anyone, you have me. I know what it feels like. I go through the same things everyday. No one deserves to face depression alone.

If you need someone to talk to or you feel like committing, message me and I promise I'll listen. You deserve a chance to share your story without being judged. I will do everything I can to help you because you deserve to live. You are all amazing. Even though I can't see you face to face, I love every single one of you.

~ Bree

I also want to thank Kyran EnergyAddicts. Your story What's Depression Like, he asked is amazing and I love you. You are my hero. You have been through so much shit. Stuff that no one deserves to go through. I haven't been through have the shit that you go through everyday. Yet, you are still able to make it through the day. Everyday when I want to end my life, I think, "If Kyran can make it, then so can I" So in a way, you have unknowingly saved my life. I just wanted to say thank you and point out how lucky you are to have friends that will stick by your side no matter what. A couple of years ago, some shit happened and I lost my trust in humans. I didn't even think that there was such a thing as a true friend. I have no one to talk to. You have no idea how big of an impact you had on me. Whenever I read your posts, I literally cry because I have finally found someone who understands how I feel. Anyways, thank you so much. If you ever feel like committing, just read this message and remember that you are the inspiration to many of your readers. Plus, I'll send you a virtual hug. Thank you!!!