Take away the Numb

"Erika???"

Jay was kind of enough to advice the girls to Shane's whereabouts, given a fair warning that he might not open the door. He had locked everyone out of his life after Erika's passing and only spoke to Anna and Jay here and there. When they got there Kirsten recognized it from the stitch and they banged on the do with no response.

*Flash*

Erika is banging the on the door crying and seeming slightly upset, her eyes were blood shot and make up was a mess

Erika: "Abre la pureta [open the door]"

Erika bangs on the door harder

Erika: "Shane!"

Erika slams herself on the door and falls to the floor, a key falls from the top and Erika looks at it slowly picking it up and looks at the door

*Flash*

Kirsten looks up at the door and stretches her hand searching till she grabs the key. She holds it out in front of her and looks towards Camille as if they are silently communicating. Camille nods her head and Kirsten unlocks the door. They walk in all looks the same as the stitch the only difference is the scatter of clothes and beer bottles. They cautiously walk down a hall to his bedroom. There they find him shirtless in sweats, holding a beer in one hand and the shirt Kirsten saw Erika wearing in the stitch. He looks up at them with blood shot eyes, "Que quieras [what do you want]?" It was obvious he hadn't been sober in days her ricked of alcohol and cigarettes. They stared at him, he looked so destroyed so opposite of how he was presented in the stitch. After realizing she had been staring for to long she clear her throat, "umm we came to ask you a few questions about Erika". He looked at her as he took a sip of his beer and sat at the edge of the bed, "What do you want to know?" Kirsten started into his eyes, "About your affair with Erika". She caught him by surprise and he's expression changed. He cold closed off appearance started to fade. He throws the beer against the wall shattering the glass and making Camille and Kirsten.

It was obvious something cracks in him, he breaks down. "It's my fault, I never showed her the love she deserved", he ran his hair. He walks to his dresser and takes out few photos, and hands them to Kirsten. "She was so beautiful... so amazing... I don't know how she ever fell in love with someone like me", he muttered under his breath. Kirsten looked through the photo some were of just Erika others were of him and Erika; she flipped through them till she stopped at one with Erika and him sitting on a couch with a baby girl and another with just Erika sitting in bed holding the baby.

*Flash*

Erika and Shane are holding the baby girl; they're both just smiling. Erika holds the baby out in front of Shane

Erika: Come on Sage give daddy a kiss

The baby giggles and Shane gives Sage a kiss, Erika's smile widens. Suddenly her phone rings and she hands the Sage off to Shane to answer it. Erika's smile fades

Erika: It's time to take Sage back to Mindy and Jason.

Shane comes up to her to comfort her, Sage in hand

Shane: Don't worry soon we wont have to be taking her back and she'll just be ours

Shane holds Sage up to Erika

Shane: Sage now give mommy a kiss

*Flash*

"Sage", Kirsten sighs as she stares at the photos. Shane looks up, "We were going to Adopt her..." Shane suddenly loses it; punches the wall, " GOD! WHY COULDN'T I GET MY FUCKING LIFE TOGETHER" Camille comments in, " why didn't you". He turns around to face them, " I thought I would ruin her life... turn out I ended". He runs his hand through his hair as he starts crying. Out of nowhere he loses it again, "SHE WAS RIGHT... SHE WAS SO FUCKING RIGHT... UGH I JUST DISTROYED HER... I KILLLED HER... I KILLED HER". Kirsten for some reason has an impulse to help him walking up to him trying to calm him down. He's still thrashing and screaming; tears are suddenly flowing Kirsten's cheeks.

*Flash*

Shane finds Erika destroying her room and goes insane

Shane: "SEE ERIKA... SEE IM NO GOOD FOR YOU ALL I DO IS DISTROY YOU"

Erika is trying to calm him down, tears run down her cheeks

Erika: "no you don't Shane you are my angel... you the reason I smile... and you make my days so much better"

Shane shakes his head

Shane: "NO IM AWFUL... IM GONNA END UP KILLING YOU"

Erika is now in somewhat of a laugh/cry, as she looks him deep in the eyes

Erika: " Shhhh... you wouldn't kill me..."

Some how that brings Shane the ability to calm down, Erika wipes the tears from her eyes

Erika: "God your lucky I love you"

*Flash*

Kirsten out of nowhere starts as if she Erika, "No you don't Shane you are my angel... you the reason I smile... and you make my days so much better". He suddenly is fixated on Kirsten, " shhhh... you wouldn't kill me..." He's eyes don't leave Kirsten's, "God your lucky I love you". Kirsten had no idea where that had came from but it seem to have calm Shane down. He kept staring at Kirsten in shock speechless. Kirsten didn't move trying to figure out what had just happened and Camille just watcher in shock. It seemed like an eternity of them standing there in silence. Suddenly Shane killed the silence, "Erika???"