The bad boy, the best friend, and the nerd.

Chapter Thirty

Amy's P.O.V

Jesus, why does he have to start crying?

I'm absolutely awful at trying to comfort people when they cry especially considering the person crying is my ex boyfriend. So I awkwardly put my hand on his back and we just sit there in silence while he crys. After a while he finally calms down enough to look back up at me.

"You really don't deserve any of this shit," he says with tears still evident in his eyes. "You didn't deserve what I did to you and you don't deserve this, and I don't deserve you trying to comfort me."

And maybe he's right, if I were doing any of this "bitchy ex girlfriend" stuff right I wouldn't be here trying to make him feel better, but what kind of asshole would leave him up on this cliff after what just happened to his cousin? I know how it feels to lose family and it sucks ass, but Brandon was there for me when my parents died and I'm going to be here for him.

"Nobody deserves half the stuff that happens," I say slipping my arms around him and giving him a hug. "But it doesn't matter anymore."

"So hypothetically," Brandon says  coughing a little. "Would I still have a chance with you if I could prove that I would never do anything stupid like that again?"

And that's a good question. Would I ever be able to forgive Brandon, let alone trust him after what he did? I mean he had been my best friend since kindergarten and I've seen him make some mistakes but would I ever be able to forget about the heartache that he caused me?

"Chances are incredibly slim," I say shaking my head. "I just don't know if I'd be able to trust you again Brandon...plus I mean you've changed. Now, you look different to me. I used to see you as someone who would never hurt me and then this happened..."

"But I would never intentionally hurt you," he says giving me his puppy eyes. "I just...did a stupid thing without thinking about what would happen."

"That's the thing Brandon," I say my eyes tearing up now. "You never think about the consequences and in the end we both got hurt. Now let's get off this cliff."

Brandon stands up and helps me to my feet and we both walk back towards the main road where Ben is patiently waiting in his car for me. Ben figured if we were going to be driving around this much it would be much simpler to take his car as opposed to his motorcycle. As soon as Brandon sees Ben step out of the car I feel him tense up next to me.

"Jennings," Ben says although the usual note of sarcasm is gone. "Sorry about what happened."

"You're hanging out with him now?" Brandon asks turning us both around so our backs are facing Ben. "He's an even bigger asshole than me, do you know exactly how many girls he's cheated on?"

"No and I don't want to know," I say shooting a look at him. "Brandon I'm not yours anymore so you shouldn't give two shits about what I'm doing."

"Even if we aren't together anymore that doesn't mean I'm just going to stop caring about you."