laying down on bed drowning in sadness of losing you. turn the volume up, ignore the word because i don't need the truth that i'm losing you.
time heals, you said. however, i don't like how it heals, because by that, i started to losing my memories about you. it's hard to remember how you smile, or how you laugh, or even our first kiss.
sometimes memories still pop up in my mind like a fresh pop corns. and when i catch some, i try to hold on to the sweetest feeling. you. no other else. i try to look at our pictures together, i try to remember what it feels like talking to you on the phone and asking why do we fall in love with each other. i try to remember how it feels like sitting next to you laying down in your shoulder when time was hard. i try to remember how you said you love me and you'll be missing me, and sometimes i wonder.. is that true? that you miss me? that you miss me so much as you said you would? do you really love me? or did you? if you do, then, how could you be fine? because i'm not, at all.
i'm surely understand those aren't important, because even if you do, it doesn't change anything anyway, i'm not that girl that would be with you for the rest of your life.
what does it feels? do you start to forget stuffs about me like i do? do you forget about how lucky i was to had you in my life? do you recall memories to try to remember me? uh, i bet it's a no, i bet you prefer DoTA than drowning in sadness.😄 but that's ok, i don't want you to feel what i feel in this night either.
how are you? fine? good classmates? good player now? are you happy? i'm happy if you do.
do you still remember one of the deep talks we've ever made? we believed that there's not only one person in this world match to each other. do you still believe that?😁
hey..,
you gave me forever within numbered days. thank you about it.💛
