The Least Expected

Gender Pt.3

Mya P.O.V.

Well I'm already at the appointment and guess who my Doctor. Michael, I remember when I spoke to him at the club on my birthday.

Michael: how you been Mya?

Me: great you.

Michael: fine... and lets see if your health is good... you smoke?

Me: no...

Michael: when was the last time you took depression pills and anxiety.

Why did he have to say that?

August: depression pills... anxiety pills.

Me: can we skip to the next question.

I felt him looking at me but I didn't look his way...

Michael: um okay... how about any side pains not able to sleep.

Me: no side pains and I've been able to sleep.

Michael: okay... let's see if it a boy or girl.

I lay down and put my shirt up I grab August hand, he put the gel on the machine face it to me and August then he place the machine on my tummy he started moving it around and he spoke.

Michael: let's see come on face me little baby.

I know this is gonna be a awkward day ever but it's whatever.

Michael: guess what it's a boy.

I smile and started tearing, August smile but looks sad he snap a picture and gave it to me I smile.

Michael: here's your next appointment.

Me: thank you Michael...

Michael: hope you have a great weekend... and if you two want to have a stretch work out for the pregnancy call me.

Me: thank you.

I hug him and we left, we went to the car and we sat their in silence we was gonna speak at the same time but stop.

Me: August I know that your curious why I take medication for my depression and anxiety but.

August: just tell me why.

Me: remember when I told you that I was bullied, take advantage,  and use to get into a lot of trouble well... that's what cause my depression and the anxiety was that I was so stress out cause of school and I use to have panick attacks and it start we d getting worst so I had to go to therapy.

August: why you didn't tell me?

Me: I don't want my past to rehappen again, do you know how painful it was to suffer cause nobody can accept you for who you are?

I look started to tear but I held it back in.

Me: that's why I'm cold hearted I don't give a fuck about people feeling or lives... I don't even cry when someone tells me something bad happened and till one I day I let everything out... I'm the type of person to hide my feeling for a while till it's the right time to let it go. Lets just go home alright I don't like talking about my past.

I just look out the window and he started driving once we got home we went in and I see mama Alsina feeding Anthony.

Mama Alsina: hey guys...

Me: hey mama Alsina.

I came to her and gave her a hug and kiss.

Anthony: mama.

Me: hi baby.

I went to him and gave him a hug and kiss on the forehead.

Me: I'm gonna go take a shower.

I want upstairs and went to the bathroom took off my clothes turn on the shower to warm and went in. I always thought what did I do wrong that I don't get the respect. Then I heard the close and I just let the water run down my face then I heard a voice which you already know.

August: my mama left.

Me: aw I didn't even get to say goodbye.

August: she said bye.

Me: oh...

August: we still need to talk.

Me: their nothing to talk about August.

August: yes their is... I don't like seeing you depress.

I turn off the shower and got the towel I wrap it around my body and got out.

Me: what do you want to talk about?

August: why?

Me: I don't know what you talking about.

August: I know damn well you did not ask me that question... you know what the fuck I'm talking about.

Me: okay fine I was bullied, taken advantage of, sexually harassted, also I failed got left back even tho I was in the honor rolls all year around I didn't even get to graduate with my so call friends which can suck some dick also... I us to steal just to eat food and I use to smoke... that's why I'm always depress.

I started crying cause all the things I hold in for years. He came and hug me.

August: I'm sorry...

Me: see why I don't like talking about my past cause I start to become weak in the inside... I was hell.

We walk to the room and I sat down on the bed I see little Ant sleeping on the bed. I put on a pajamas and lay down August just took off his pants and shirt came to me lay next to me and started rubbing my belly.

Me: I can't stay hurt all my life I can't be the victim all my life cause now I have you guys.

I Ant on the forehead and rest my hand on top of August.

August: I didn't live a perfect life either just trying to survive is harder than you think.

We put our heads together then fell asleep.