The Stories of Leah Clearwater - (Book One)

Chapter 16 - The OLD Leah is DEAD

I woke up and rubbed my eyes. The sky was overcast and there was a light drizzle outside. I had a headache. “Mom are you home?” I called out. My head felt like it had hit with a sledge hammer.

“Yeah Leah what’s up?” she appeared in my doorway.

“Can I have something for a headache please. I don’t want to move.”

She nodded. “I will get you some Tylenol.” She was off and back in a matter of seconds with two white pills and a glass of water. “What happened did you wake up with it?”

I sat up nodding gently and took the pills.

“Have you had anything to eat yet?”

I was still sleepy, “No. I don’t even know what time it is.”

She looked at her watch, “It’s 10:48am. Seth is at school. Would you like me to make you something to eat?” she smiled.

“If you don’t mind I would love that.” I leaned my head against the wall.

My mom headed out to the kitchen and made something to eat for me, “Leah it’s ready.”

I pulled myself off the bed and made it to the kitchen. “Thank you.”

I sat down and started eating. My mom was sitting there looking at me. I caught her out of the corner of my eye,

“Leah,”

I turned and looked at her. “Yeah.”

She took a deep breath and looked at me, “Are you ok?”

I didn’t know what brought this on. “Yeah why wouldn’t I be?” I set the fork down on my plate.

“Well you seem to have a lot on your mind.” she took my hands into her’s and held onto them.

I inhaled deeply, “I don’t know what to say mom.”

She looked at me, “Leah your not yourself. You started to get back into your normal routine after dad, transitioned. Since you’ve come back from Port Angeles, you’ve been acting different. I worry about you.”

I rolled my eyes though it hurt my head, “Mom there’s just a lot going on in my head right now.”

Her grip on my hands tightened a little, “Leah please Seth had mentioned you may have been in trouble before but your not now. What does that mean?”

I closed my eyes weighing the option of whether or not to tell her.

“Leah please tell me. Are you in trouble?”

I had to tell her, I took a sharp intake of breath, “Mom chill ok. Before we went to Port Angeles I was reading my journal. Well on our way there I started remembering something. There was a time Sam and I went to Port Angeles and,” I had to take a second to collect myself. “I was 3 weeks late. I called Sam and told him. Well I didn’t tell you or dad. We went to a clinic up there. The pregnancy test came back negative. I told Sam and then coincidence he disappeared for those 3 weeks after we came back. I thought he left because I wasn’t pregnant.”

I looked at my mom. Her expression was a combination of shock, hurt, fury and disappointment. “Leah, why? I thought you were more careful. You should have come to me. I know you and Sam were dating but you should have waited. You don’t just go and do that with who ever comes along.”

I just looked at her and pulled my hands back, “Excuse me. Who are you to tell me what to do with my life. What is it of your business of who I chose to lose my virginity too. I loved Sam. I thought he was the one.” I was getting angry. “You and dad lost it to each other before you were married. Matter of fact the reason you two got married so young was?” I glared at her, “You were pregnant with me. So why is it so different? I will tell you why, because I’m your daughter. Please save me the whole I don’t want you to make the same mistakes I did.”