The Stories of Leah Clearwater - (Book One)

Chapter 18 - The Denial

Sam was running through the woods. Things looked like a blur of greens and browns. The air was moist. “I don’t understand how she went back to those filthy Cullen’s. After he just left her in the woods. If he only saw how she looked when I found her.” he growled while running.

The leaves on the tree’s had beads of rain sitting on them. The ground thudded as Sam ran across. His four large black paws not afraid of crushing what were beneath them. The growls kept rolling through the air. In his head he yelled, “Filthy bloodsucking parasites.”

I stood there after hanging the phone up. Sam had run off. This smugness came over me.

“Leah you ok there?” Jacob raised an eyebrow.

I shook my head grinning, “He left. He ran away like a sad, little, pathetic puppy. Some alpha.” I barked out a laugh.

Jake was left sitting there looking at me like I’d gone crazy, “Care to fill me in?!”

I laughed again, “Sam and Emily had a huge fight. She hasn’t seen him for several days. I don’t care not my problem.”

Jacob looked at me, “Now I know that’s a lie. You do care.” My jaw clenched and Jacob saw it, “Leah I understand you say that, trying to fool yourself. I hate to break it to you, it’s not fooling anyone else.” Jacob smiled.

“Oh you hush Jacob Black.” I pouted knowing he was right.

I sat back down beside him on the couch and leaned my head against Jacob’s shoulder.

He smiled, “Leah I’m always here to listen.” he draped his arm over my shoulder.

I felt safe with Jacob. He and I just seemed to click and understand one another. I closed my eyes enjoying the quietness. He moved ever so gently and leaned down kissing the top of my head, “It’ll be ok. We’ll make it together. We’re strong people.”

I wondered who he was trying to kid just then. He laced his fingers with mine and I smiled,

“I love you Leah.” Sam’s voice spoke.

I looked up and Sam was sitting there instead of Jacob.

“Sam!” I was startled awake.

Jake was rubbing my arm, “It’s ok calm down. You fell asleep. I knew you still cared about him.” Jake smiled.

He was my friend but I was so comfortable around him. We knew how each other felt. We both loved someone we couldn’t be with. We sat quiet for a while.

“Well I need to get going home. I’ll call you later.” he smiled and gave me a hug and left quietly.

I yanked my journal out from underneath the couch cushion and opened it.

Well I guess Jacob told her how he truly felt. She’s going to join the leech renegade. I hate the girl. I think I hate her because of all the problems she’s caused. She’s causing Jacob so much heartache. She should have to see every thought going through his head. See the pain that sits in his chest. She breaks his heart. She comes back, tapes it together then drops it again. She’s selfish just like Sam.

I shut my journal. I didn’t know who was more angry for Jacob, him or myself. I wanted to protect him. He was younger than me. I couldn’t let him feel the way I did. I was a bitter, angry, heart broken, person. My mom came home with Seth. The lights flicked on, and I jumped.

“Leah.”my mom startled and stepped backwards a little. “Leah why were you sitting in the dark?” she walked in hanging up her coat and setting her purse down.