The Stories of Leah Clearwater - (Book One)

Chapter 21 - Bella you made your bed, you can lay in it.

It had been about a week since the fight. Jacob was back on his feet without difficulty. I wasn’t sure how he felt about seeing me. I wanted to give him some space. She was going to be come a parasite soon enough. Just like them. Then Sam would void the treaty. I couldn’t imagine how Jacob felt knowing his best friend was going to be like them. We hadn’t talked since the fight. I hadn’t spoken to anyone really. I stayed in my room for the past week. I would slip into the bathroom to take a shower then go back to my room.

“Leah, dinners ready.” my mom would call out.

I didn’t get up to eat. I didn’t have the energy. I was so alone. The person who was my friend was now gone. If he wasn’t angry he would have called me. I knew he hated me. I hurt him in more ways than just one.

“Leah I said dinner’s ready.” my mom called again.

I ignored her.

“What is going on with her? She’s not come out of that room except to take a shower and then go back in.” my mom asked Seth.

“I don’t know. She blames herself for Jake getting hurt. It kind of was her fault. She wanted to prove she was strong enough. It back fired on her, plus Jake hasn’t called her at all.”

My mom sighed and came down the hall knocking on my door, “Leah Clearwater. I said dinner is ready. Let’s go, now please.”

I got up off the bed and opened my door.

My mom smiled, “Please come and eat dinner. No use in beating yourself up over something that’s happened. Focus on your future.”

I walked out and sat down and ate dinner. I finished up and headed to my room calling it a day. I dreamed quite a bit that night. At some point I was standing with Bella in the woods, confessing my love to her. Telling her she was making a wrong choice. Trying to convince her to choose me. Then I carefully held her face in my hands and kissed her. I woke up gagging.

The next day I called over to Billy’s house. The phone rang once,

“Hello.”

I let out a sigh of relief. Jacob hadn’t answered, one fear down. “Uh...hi Billy. It’s Leah."

Billy’s deep voice echoed in my head, “He’s not home Leah. He took off for his spot about an hour ago.”

I felt some of the anxiety dwindle, “Ok thanks anyway.” I hung up.

I decided I needed to try and catch up with him. I needed to tell him how I felt. I got dressed and slipped out through my window. The walk up to the cliffs was quiet and rather peaceful. The waves crashed against the shore like an angry god trying to batter down the door. I could hear the voices of people below. There was a breeze that carried the smell of the salt right up to where I was. I finally got to the top of the cliffs. Jacob stood there looking off into the horizon motionless. We all knew what was going on in his head. We had phased and heard the thoughts. Mine weren't so pleasant either. Bella was really choosing Cullen over Jacob. I joined him as he stood there.

“Jacob, do you think this is going to take too much longer?” I demanded being impatient and whiney.

His teeth clenched together, “Jump off a cliff Leah.” he pointed to his feet, where he stood on the edge.

“Really kid.” I ignored him and sprawled on the ground beside him. “You have no idea how hard this is for me.” he didn’t realize how much it hurt me, to see him like this.

“For you?” he stood motionless. “You have to be the most self absorbed person alive, Leah. I’d hate to shatter the dream world you live in - the one where the sun is orbiting the place where you stand. So I won’t tell you how little I care what your problem is. Go away.”