Mute (BoyXBoy)

Chapter 15

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*Leo's Pov*

I found a park not too far from my house, maybe a mile away at most. I didn't know what do. I felt like my moment had been taken from me, something I was supposed to cherish forever was now tainted with the memory of me being a replacement. This was why. This was the exact reason I don't make friends, why I would rather just have my books. Somehow, people always let you down. I didn't even know if he and I had a future together. Then again, this was kind of my fault. I mean, I just jumped into bed with another person. I did exactly what I was afraid of doing and look where it got me.

Looking around the park I saw a number of kids playing, parents running around with their kids, pushing them on the swings while talking to the other adults around them. One group of people stuck out to me, however. Two people were sitting on a blanket, one holding the other in his arms while his fingers ran through the other ones hair. It was in this small moment I had a burst of clarity, as I looked at how happy they seemed. I could still have that. Hell, I just had it a moment ago. I just had my first blow job, almost had sex for the first time. Before I had moved here, I would never have done any of those things. There was however, that sinking feeling inside of me, one that had rang loud with every happy moment that had just transpired.

I was still a replacement. I knew what I had to do. I had to talk to him about this, tell him that it wasn't okay to use me like that. I don't regret what had happened but I also don't like being someone's 'fuck-to-remember-another-person'. I sat there for a while longer, trying to collect my thoughts on how I could approach the situation when I returned home. I had come to the conclusion that he and I couldn't be in a relationship. Close friends was a possibility if that was something he could agree with, maybe even something physical if push came to shove.

I hadn't even realized how much time had passed. I had to have been sitting on this bench for hours. Pulling out my phone and checking the time I noticed I had only been sitting here for thirty minutes. I couldn't believe how little time had gone by. I had to have played a million different scenarios in my head, all of them falling back on my plan to talk to him. I wasn't even sure how I would start the one sided conversation, but I had to start somewhere and sitting here on this bench wasn't going to do a damn thing.

Using the surge of adrenaline that was now coursing through me, I started my walk back home. It was nice to get out of the house for a while, but I was still feeling the car accident from not too long ago. This was the first amount of real work I had out on my body since the move really, and I could feel it was starting to take its toll. Making a mental note to start working out again, I found myself hesitating to open the front door. The walk home didn't take me nearly as long as the walk to the park and I was kind of counting on the longer time frame to get my thoughts a little more put together.

The adrenaline I had earlier had definitely worn off and I was left standing there looking completely lost in front of my own home. I knew I had to go in, but actually stepping inside seemed more of a challenge than just a few moments ago. Clutching tight to what little courage I had left I reached for the door and opened it up. He was sitting there at the dining room table just within my view, his hand brushing quickly along the paper that sat before him. I figured he was drawing another picture, and I didn't really know what it was going to be, but honestly I wasn't in a rush to find out.

Walking over to where it was he was sitting, I grabbed the seat next to him and waited for him to look up. I didn't want to interrupt what he was working on so I used this time to collect my thoughts. The air was different now, tense and uncertain. I think he knew what he did was wrong.

"We need to talk, Shylo." I stated as he looked up from his paper.

"Well, I mean, I'm going to talk, but I don't you are. What you did, using me as a replacement for the other guy, that was wrong."

As I expected he didn't say anything. I didn't think that he would but I still found it frustrating. I just wanted him to say something. To acknowledge what it was I was saying to him, he just sat there, staring at me, no emotion on his face whatsoever. Was it wrong for me to feel this way? I hadn't even taken into consideration his feelings on the matter.

Then again, there was no real way to justify what he had done. I continued talking to him about how I felt about the situation and found myself getting more and more annoyed with his silence. I just needed something. For to say 'okay' or anything at this point. After asking him what his thoughts were on the situation he just looked back down at his drawing. He had left it face down so I have no idea what it was, honestly I wasn't too keen on finding out, either.

I told him everything. That I don't think we could be together, just friends, but I wouldn't be opposed to messing around from time to time, provided it would end in him thinking about the other guy. I told him that I was hurt and felt like something I was holding onto was taken away from me just to help him remember someone else. I also clarified that I also don't want to date Axel, just so there was no confusion.

He didn't look up for a while, just sat there, staring down at the table until what felt like an hour passed. Finally lifting his head up he looked at me and smiled. He nodded his head slightly then got up and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek.  Getting up from the chair he walked over to the living room and sat on the couch, the patted the seat next to him hinting at me joining him

After taking a seat next to him he reached over and turned on the television then climbed onto my lap and started kissing on my neck. I had to admit I was very turned on at the moment, but found myself stopping him and telling him let's just relax and watch what was on. Smiling and climbing off of me, he cuddled up really close and wrapped my arm around his shoulder.

I wasn't sure how much time had passed, but long enough to make me jump when my phone rang. Pulled it out of my pocket I answered when I saw it was Axel calling me. He asked if I was free and if he could come over. Looking over at Mute I relayed the question and asked what he thought. Smiling he nodded his head so I told him to head on over.

'This could actually work pretty well.' I thought to myself. Would give me a chance to confront Axel on the way he's been acting and how it felt when he stole my kiss, or when he tried to mess around at the school. This would also be my chance to tell him that I'm not interested in dating him. I had everything planned out. What I would say, how everything would go, but I could never have anticipated that this would be his reaction.

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