Forgotten Memories

Chapter 6

2 years later

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When will the sadness go away?it haunts me every night I go to sleep,I have the same nightmare every single stinking night,and have found no cure.No psychiatrist or doctor can help me.My friends keep trying to persuade me to hang out with them or to find someone new.But they just don't get what its like to lose someone they love deeply,and I don't expect them to because all they do is get drunk,get high,hook up and do it all over again the next night with someone knew,not even having a second thought about the person yesterday.So basically they have no feeling whatsoever. But they have been my friends since I was like 5 so its not like I can just dis them now.Even though they can be pretty fucked up sometimes,they have really helped me through thick and thin and I could never repay all the things they've done for me and I'm greatfull for that.But I guess I can't say I'm becoming more and more like them,not in attitude but appearance I guess you would say.I now have about 40 tattoos and 4 piercings on my face. I don't know what moved me to do this but I guess its just my way of expressing myself. My personal favorite tattoo is the rose,of course because it reminds me of Rose,it was the very first one I got.Next thing you know my phone starts buzzing on the table next to me and I see the caller ID is none other than Lou. It seems like he calls me every 5 minutes,ok maybe I'm exaggerating a tad bit.I pick up the phone and answer.

"Hey what's going on mate?".

"Hey I wanted to invite you to the house tonight, it'll only be a couple friends,we'll have a great time!".

"I don't know Lou".

"C'mon Har we'll have fun,please?".

"Only a few people?"

"Yea I have some friends visiting right now".

"What time?".

"Around 7:00".I look at the clock and its 5:30.

"Ok fine whatever".

"Yes finally you get out of that damn house!".

"I'm only doing this for you,so don't ruin in".I say hoping that he can feel the smirk on my face.

"Yea yea,whatever, you know your bored in there".

"No I'm not,stop bugging me before I change my mind".

"Ok fine but don't bail on us like you did last time".

"Yea I know,I won't".

"Alright see ya tonight then".

"Ok bye".

Ugh why did I agree to go?I guess its because I knew eventually Lou was going to kidnap me and force me into getting out of my house. I hope I didn't make a bad decision.I put my elbows on my knees and rest my head in my palms,just to take in the peace while it lasts.

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I pull up to Lou's house and realize that his thinking of "a few friends" is more like the whole damn city.What the hell am I doing here?Fuck it I'm going back home.Right when I'm about to pull away,Lou is standing at the front of my car.God damn it,I knew I wasn't going to get out of this.

"And where do you think your going?hmm?".

"Back home where I belong,not this drunken party".

"Chill man,the only way to get you to come was to tell you only a few people were coming, if I told you the truth there would be no way in hell you would have agreed to come".

"Yea your right that's why I'm going now".

"Oh no your not".

"And why's that?".