Out Of Character

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Ah, ha

Having thoughts out of character to-day

Topsy turvy wiring and
Circuit boards misfiring,

Results!
Are not the ones I'm looking for. A vague sense

Of dissatisfaction, oh
(Dreary sigh)

We can always restart,

Some other night.
You know?

The songs in my head are okay, I guess,
I need new ones
(And rather desperately),
My desk is a mess.
I ought not
To frustrate myself, I know..

But oh.

Am I uninspired or
Just uninspiring

I try not to dwell on such a thing.

The thoughts are there
(It's the most I can say for them at the moment..)
But I wouldn't say they're my best. And all
The replacements are hardly better.

Ah, old content,
Revisitation,

I feel I've squandered summer vacation.

You and God couldn't help me,
Because to be honest with you both,
I don't know what I want!

Ah, ha

I can make squandering look pretty and all,
But it's nothing to be sustained on.

Pass time, 'til it's used up-

Oh, that's truly a vile concept.
I will make myself vomit before this is over.
Whatever it is.

(It feels rather out of character, wouldn't you say
I am to-day?)
Anyway..

If I decide to come back to myself,
I'll let you know.
(And you too, Daddy-O, shaking your head at me from your heavenly throne.
You'll know.)

I don't usually make sense but
Surely it sounds better than this, whatever it is.
(Indignant sniff)

Ah, ha

Whoever I am to-day doesn't have much up
Her sleeve.
I'll leave you with a
(Pout)

And seek dreamscape reprieve.

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